twinkle twinkle little star

2009-09-06T17:02:00.000+08:00

loooovely weekend!
the rain and all, made this weekend so cozy. i nv wanna get out of bed :)

ytd went out for dimsum w bf and family. at ah yat seafood - the bird park outlet. the dim sums were quite affordable; like 128 bux for 6 adults. quite average, like any other dim sum at chinatown. juz that it's like half the price. the seafood thr was disappointing tho. i thought the turf city outlet was better. more variety as well.

after that headed to the hilltop for sightseeing. haha. nothing much oso. juz some factories and greenery. parking is free tho, so can drive up if nth better to do. haha

went hm to sleep till i dunno wat time oso. den headed to thomson for prata. haha. fat fat.
went back home, watch a v boliao movie. den went to sleep.

sunday, woke up at 1130. had macdonalds, did some shopping, den went back hm sleep.
again.
eat sleep sleep eat eat... haha
my looovely weekend. i gg out to eat w bf again. haha

so looking forward to gg dblo w bf next weekend!!

2009-08-31T20:38:00.000+08:00

its monday today, but it isnt moody or blue.
its my day off. had lovely bfastat @ toast box. the place is comfy, but the food there was juz alright. i had mee siam, and calista had bah hu toast. the drinks are not too bad, but if u wanna have better toast, ya kun's is better.

after tt sent her to sch. they celebrating teachers' day today. the children all brought present. one of her classmate bought a cute feathery pen for the principal, and he wrote:this penis for u. the missing finger spacing made it sound so wrong. bf kept laughing. he was the one who told mi abt it coz he saw it first.

went to PS to catch final destination. bought the 5 pm show ticket and we went for early dinner @ carls j; bf's fav fast food restaurant. cant rem the name v clearly, but the burger w the mushroom was awesome. i finished up the whole meal, for the first time. i eat alot la, but everytime i will juz leave like maybe 2 mouthful.

we were quite disappointed with the movie tho. we could have like watch proposal or something else...
slept like a log on the ride home. so zzz...

it feels so not mi to be home at this hour la. haha

2009-06-29T20:24:00.003+08:00

its the monday off again.
juz hung up w my bf. poor him, he had a bz day today.

i just realised tt so fast, its already mid yr. so many things happened this yr.
my bf and i, we went for our first holiday this yr, then the second and the third.
not really holiday, just getaway.

alright, the first was to genting. gamble, eat, play, drink, sleep...
drink - bf is not a big fan of alcohol, unnlike mi. haha. nevertheless, he can really drink. at least better than most guys. and luckily for mi, when my bf is high, he dont shout or scream or do crazy things. he will only fall asleep in 5 seconds. haha. v cute. coz before i got the towel to wash up, he's already snoring. i think its cute la, coz my bf mah. but for mi, when i'm tipsy, i will juz be happy. i wont do anything tt mean also.

the second was to pulau ubin. out of the island, its considered getaway also mah :D
go thr see mangrove, fly kite, eat seafood, cycle - i like; can burn fats.

ok. the 3rd one was my fav, the totally unplanned trip to pulai springs @ msia. bf drove in. quite fun, eat, sleep, sing, swim, golf, lum nua... i dunno y, but i like long rides in the car. i know it do sounds silly. but i like to look at what other drivers do on the road, look at the other cars. look at the greenery... bf is usually quiet when he drives. but sometimes we will laugh at the things other drivers do. like picking their nose when there's traffic jam. i read from somewhere. at least 70% of men shockingly dig their nose in their cars. its like wth. so dirty. but boys oh boys. haha. i would very much wanna say i dont wanna depend on a man. but cant la, feel so nice in bf's car. esp when the windows are wined down and he drives at 140kph, i tell u, the thrill is undescribable. it feels happy.

in the past, i tell myself not to love my boy so much too. but somehow, after spending time together, gotten to know each other better, i felt tt i love him more each day. not being mushy. i love my bf for the things he did for mi. like when i wanna hav desserts at MOF, he will say "wa lao, u dont always like tt lei, wanna eat expensive things". v upsetting. but when he get his pay, he will say "go MOF eat lei, like v nice".

MOF not tt expensive oso. but its v touching. coz everytime he make comments like i v pampered etc, i dont wish to talk abt it anymore. but come to think of it, i oso sibei jialat la. such things i dunno myself, its only from my friends tt i learnt tt i only like to fine dine la, even the most lok kok place i wanna go is food court, sure muz hav air con one.

itz tt time of the mth again. i will yell at anyone who irks mi. even like the slightest thing, i will juz scream. if not, i'll be v emo. but i really appreciate my bf who tried all his means to make mi smile on the journey to his place ytd night. and he did. we had happy food, we watched a movie together, we fell asleep together in bed. i felt so blessed when i see him sleeping like a baby boy beside mi this morning. the blessed feeling is love i guess. i felt it. i know it took abit too long :) more than a yr. but this lovely feeling is different from the love of worrying abt bf being angry la, thinking if he is driving safe on the road, wondering if he had taken his meals, guessing if he's sleeping well...

:D at least i felt tt these few days, i hav some time to go thru deep thoughts, had some good sleep. i felt so recharged. i'm ready to go to work tmr with all my energy.
** i will be so busy with the year end closing, so this lenghty entry is to make up for my absence... haha :)

2009-06-08T22:28:00.002+08:00

bah. mondays off. damn lam nua.
bf's not working today. spent the night at his place the past 2 days. but his bed not comforty at all. will hav v bad backache.

oh my, i detest gg to work. how?????????
tmr gotta rush for the monthly closing again. its like a cycle, which goes on and on and on and.....

sometimes i feel upset abt myself. ive not achieved anything in life. nobody loves mi. except my bf... i feel so childish saying this, but its true.
.
..
...

i guess tt when someone makes a mistake, she will have to live in disgrace for life.
maybe it shouldnt be this way at all. its juz the people around mi. there again, those who're with mi are only a handful. bf, and a few other friends.

izzit people like mi are not yet accepted in the society? y do i have to be treated so unfairly among the rest??

at times, i really feel so lost. i feel tt i do not have anyone. except bf.
yes its true tt he will start a family soon with mi. tt will be my own family. a family tt i always wanted it to be the way it is.

i do not want to live with disgrace. which my family is making mi feel now. i tried so hard to win points for myself all these yrs, but to no avail. i feel tt they juz take mi for granted. i hate myself for saying this, but thats juz the way it is. that's how pathetic i am. i do not even know who i am myself anymore.

i'm not happy anymore.

i juz hope that tmr would be a better day.

2009-04-27T00:21:00.002+08:00

lalala. Itz sunday today, and guess wat, i need nt work tmr. Yay! Gg for an interview tmr. Hope all goes well. I'm so tired working at this current place. I nv gotta leave work at six, and tt is not wat i wan at all. I hav gastrics, i hav dizzy spells, all thx to this job.

Anyway, weekend was simply gr8. Stayed over at bf's place on fri night, spent some time together on sat afternoon and then i went to a collegue's newborn's full mth. always feel happy and excited when attending baby's celebrations.

Bf went to collect his pc from sim lim. He've sent it back twice, and i hope it is ok now.

Actually, i hav a confession to make. I always complain abt how boring bf is. But the thing is, he's really the man that can be tthe family man. Not wat many wants as a bf, but a husband. he would feel v happy each time i decided to spend the night w him. I dunno y, but i can juz tell. I seldom sees happiness in his eyes nowdays. I hope itz juz work tt he's been worrying abt. Now i start to feel bad. I had wanted to accompany him tonight and stay at his place to make bfast for him tmr morn, but because we had a little argument earlier, i kept mum abt it, and feeling regreat now. Haha.

Went to watch taken in town earlier this evening. Had nice olive fried rice at some thai restaurant. Nicee food, nice movie, nice drinks; i bought snapple to reward myself. Keke. Nice things makes mi happy. Heeee!

Alright, time to catch some beauty sleep... Nite nite.

Ps. I got update one lor, haha

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2009-04-13T16:45:00.002+08:00

lalala. Itz my day off today. So bored at home. Nthing much to do.

I had a looong weekend this week. 4 days of rest. but work tmr is gonna be insane i tell u. Itz been 2 weeks since i last knock off at six. I work till like 9 plus 10 each day, where everyone already had their dinner and lying on the couch to watch telly. How can i not be pissed? I am the last to leave office everyday. I work more than 12 hrs everyday. the thought of gg back to office tmr makes mi wanna puke. I cant go out w my frends... I cant hav dinner w my family. Is this the corporate ladder that i wanna climb??

sometimes i complain so much but bf says 'isnt this what u wan?' actually, this is not wat i wan. Eversince i met bf, i hav learnt to take things easier, slower... Bf taught mi many things in life. He impresses mi w things i think he didnt know.

Oh well, shall juz enjoy the little time ttz left for myself and calista. I'm so tired!!

2009-03-24T00:49:00.002+08:00

god. I just realised how busy life have been tt i totally neglected to update for a mth.

Yae, i'm still alive. Sound and kicking. Am updating using my mobile. Have been so busy w work lately. I fear tt one day, i will wake up, not knowing who i was. I dream abt working in my sleep. I'm so tired. I hav insomia. I sleep only 4 hrs a day. The rest of the time i'm either having nightmares, or wierd dreams where people scream at mi. This is so sad. I thought it was juz pms again, but it isnt. I thought i would feel better after the getaway, but apperantly, i did not. i dunno. I juz wanna get to sleep.....

Tmr will not be a gd day at all. I hav god i dunno how many reports to rush. Oh nooooooo.....

I need to go to lalaland soon. I hope i'll sleep well tonight...
:(

I

2009-02-22T00:12:00.002+08:00

i had a great day today with the mates i missed out so much la.
went to do jamming near town, itz so fun. i would probably go back thr with them again...

went for a simple dinner at some chinese restaurant and then headed to sentosa after thinking where to go for around like an hour.

itz been a long time since i last went to Sentosa. i used to frequent there when i was younger, maybe like at least twice in a mth or so.

so yup. itz nice walking on the beach in the evening. sandy wind, soft sand; not tt soft la... but itz nice. sit on the sand and bitch around with frens. bitching man. ttz my forte la.

it will be sun tmr. bf day :)
wish i could have some nice bfast. shall see :)
getting tired. tucking in soon.
nighty night night

2009-02-15T22:22:00.002+08:00

belated valentine's day.
this is my first v day wif bf, and it was great.

stayed over on fri night and then went chomps for supper.
had a long long week so we slept early.

woke up early on sat for brunch at bugis..
nice pasta, nice sleep, no dark eye rings, goood hair day, and new shoes... i like :)
went to bugis street.. so crowded and hot can. anyhow, itz under renovation, and the weather was freaking humid... no mood to continue shopping.

then we decided to go ecp for a walk, and fly our kite.
it was really nice. the children playing, people cycling and rollerblade, and people bring their pups/ humongous dogs for a walk.
i have not felt the beauty of the beach for a long time, i have nv seen my bf so happy for a long time. seeing such beautiful things, i feel happy. i feel that people shouldnt feel bad abt the recession and all. coz when there's peak, it will come to a point tt it wont improve anymore and start to decline. chim ar?? i learnt this in sch :)

then we travelled to yishun for dinner.
wif "slutty gf" now. we travel anywhere and everywhere... haha. and dump everything in her.

what are u thinking man. slutty gf is bf's vehicle la.

ahye, and today, we went to the little island 15 min away from spore for a walk.
simple get together with my in laws to be. haha.
i dont have to go to work tmr. i feel so relaxed.
but i feel the pinch as well. 10% pay cut; 2 days off a mth.

putting tt aside, i at least have some time alone for myself. to sleep... haha.

so much of hahaing today. i wont be able to sleep tonight. my results will be out tmr.
i'm worried. be it i pass or fail, i juz wanna know my results...

nighty night night peeps.

2009-01-28T20:38:00.002+08:00

happy CNY!
:)

the get together with relatives had gotten less exciting over the years.
each yr seems to pass faster, and each yr we have lesser to talk abt.

have a happy and prosperous CNY everyone.

p/s: i dunno wat to write abt..

2008-12-31T17:39:00.003+08:00

goodbye 2008, welcome 2009
:)

i'll be twenty 3 next yr.
gosh. the forth yr of my twenties...
awww. feeling so old.

oh well anyway, will be gg to watch the fireworks tonight.
yay.

yr 2009. i hope it'll be a good yr.
many will be hit by the crisis, but nevertheless, live life to the fullest.
forget all the unhappiness, remember all the joy and laughter u shared with your loved ones. u'll nv know what happens tmr.

life's pretty unpredictable.
do wat u wanna do :)
like the yes man.

keke.
have a happy new yr everyone.

2008-12-25T23:14:00.002+08:00

merry xmas..
:)

itz such a nice day. the weather's cold, i hav my bf to cuddle and accompany mi shop.
sweets.
i'm so contented; and happy :)

actually, i decided to just pop by and update coz i accidentally saw my bf hoping to read something new from the blog.

i bought something nice from lalalalalalasenza; a gift to reward myself this xmas.
:) happy <33

this yrs coming to an end. itz scary coz time really flies. itz like in a blink blink, i'll be 23.
den wat.
save money la.
buy house la.
get married la.
have kids la.
watch them grow up la.

lala...
maybe in the past, i would probably say ahye...
not the type of life i want.

but when you grow older each day, you will come to realise that this is life.
this is what the life every woman wants.
let mi quote u an example.

if theres a man who'll be there for you, who loves you, who treasures u, who stays with you for good or bad times...
who tolerate your nonsensical bimbotic fetishes. then y not marry this man and fulfill all the above.

then we have those carrier minded ones who juz slog so hard everyday.
for wat nia, for $$$ i know, but izzit the root of all evil??

if one day you grow old, ur only companion will be ur $$$.
happy meh??

mmm.
i'm juz whining la, coz no bonus...
but i still hav lovely bf who treats mi eat carls jr.
now i feel so fat. hahaha

k la. i gg lalaland sleep on the lalabed and see my lalaprince sleeping in his lalabunk.

goooooody nite nite
:)

2008-11-13T22:57:00.002+08:00

lalalala...
itz friday tmr!!!

miss my dearest bf.
know i very mushy, but i just cant help it.

i feel so not like gg to work everyday, but when i reach my desk each day, i will smell the roses tt my bf sent on my bday.
the sweet sent really juz brighten everything unhappy up.
and wif the vase of roses in front of mi, i keep thinking abt my bf.
keke.

bfbfbf, i miss my bf...
will finally get to see him again after 2 days. haha

Weekend will be short tho. sigh.

BUT TILL THEN,

i'm still a HAPPY BABY!!! coz itz fri tmr and i hav 2 hrs lunch break.
byeee

2008-11-11T22:55:00.002+08:00

11/11/2008

itz my twenty second!!
there's no such thing as forever twenty one....

thanks for all the wishes frens...

i've had a big surprise today...
my sweet bf sent mi some fresh roses to my office.
he wans to be together wif mi forever... lalala
i'm over the moon! sliding down the rainbow...
i'm a happy angel!!

dont be surprise if you hear wedding bells ringing soon :)

anyway, dinner was gr8...
the day was simply marvelous.
it was sweet and romantic..

alright.
i shall enjoy wat is left for the day...
keke.

2008-10-10T20:13:00.002+08:00

10/10/2008.
a very special day for a boy and myself.

itz been a yr.
a yr of joy, a yr of laughter, a yr of new life, a yr of having a companion.
those fights and arguments aside, i'm really glad that i have you my boy.

itz friday, but i'm stuck at home.
had a really long week. itz the monthly closing.
the deadlines, the reports etc...
i can finally put those things aside and enjoy my weekend.

jen juz called. she wanted to go out play.
i guess i'm probably too tired today.
but i still miss u tho gf. :)

looking forward to the lovely weekends.
enjoy urs too.

2008-10-07T22:29:00.002+08:00

lalalalala...
itz mid week tmr!! but this week is really insane.
lotsa stuff to do in office. so tired.
heard from some tt the colleagues tt that management is looking into retrenchment.
haha.

miss bf loads. we had a great weekend.
went to watch connected and eagle eye.
i still remember how heavy the rain was at 3am in the morning.
its probably retarded for you to play in the downpour, but for myself, i enjoyed it all.

Can feel my bf shivering, can feel his body all so cold.
can see the boy i love concentrating when riding in the rain.
keke.

misses bf.
hope he'll bring mi out for ice-cream soon!!
the ice cream monsterrrRrr........
is sleepy.

ZZzzZZzzz

2008-09-24T20:47:00.002+08:00

PMS.
tt time of the mth.
i hate it.

have a long long day tmr.
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looking forward to sunday tho.
the F1 Grand prix.
at the grandstand can u believe it????/

i hope the day will be sunny sunny.
:)

2008-09-22T20:54:00.002+08:00

i'm back. :)
Zzzz.. had a long long weekend at grand's place and am soOoooO sleepy.
had a lOng day in office today as well, but cant get to sleep.

eight days without babysweet, and still counting on. it do feels empty/ wierd/ lonesome/ not fun/ not noisy/ not myself without you.

well anyway, i'll juz update whatever i can remember. if not i'll forget.
:)

sat 13 September 2008

The very last time we watched a movie together.
the theater was freaking cold but "MaMaMia" was cheery enough to warm us up.
very nice show, four and a star for mi.

fri 12 September 2008

Went out to play and for dinner wif the bday boy CH. the boys wanted to throw him into the water, but he managed to escape.

and a few more weeks ago...

PJ and JH's twenty first bday.
forever twenty one... :D
had some good dinner with the rest, like some wedding ceremony in a chinese restaurant. very cozy cozy.

then more weeks ago...
bf had nothing to do so i started to browse thru the hdb website. he then openly peeked at what i was reading and went "we go apply la". juz like tt. :)

sometimes, i feel tt things suddenly go so fast tt i cant catch up wif my boy. i cant really find any words to describe such feelings. itz like a mixture of happiness, nervousness, excitement....

i really look forward to Mid October. i cant believe it myself, tt i'll be settling down soon. i hope all will turn out fine.
i know this done sound right, but i wanna be a wife so much. the wife of someone who loves u the most. i cant wait for this man to propose, cant wait for the big big day, cant wait for the moment when we exchange wedding bends. i feel so so soooooo excited, i can go on and on for 3 days i think.

it would b sweet if we could get those tiffany wedding bands to wearr on out fourth finger on the rest of our lives. and the solemnization on the beach. with the sand, the sun, he water.

i wanna wear black. but the colour doesnt goes well with the sand. champagne or cream would be just nice i guess.

lalala.
my bf havent even propose to mi. and i'm all so excited. i think he'll jump if he reads this. :)
or maybe he'll really propose to mi by hiding in the dustbin, or maybe disguise himself as the fedex courier man and send the ring to my workplace, or put a blink blink diamond ring in my pasta and i swallow it. or...

i think i'll better stop. coz i will juz go on and on and on and on.......................
hee.
i'm so happy!

2008-08-26T06:58:00.003+08:00

sigh.
many things been happening at work recently.
it was even on the news paper last week about the high turnover that our company have.

i put in so much effort, to see people not doing the things they should do.
just push things around = master in tai chi.

i dunno for how long more i can tolerate this.
and for tt, i didnt do well for my exams at all.

thinking abt it, the effort and time u put into at work,
the not paid OTs...

3 more months...
counting down

2008-08-14T23:05:00.002+08:00

i just watched america next top model.
jenah's still my fav. :D

i think i'm pretty much like her.
loves to hav fun, do happy things.
misses her bf. feels homesick when she's away,
misses her family, misses her bed...

which is so much how i feel when i'm away too.

i miss E alot. he juz smsed and said he's having a not so good time.
i hope he'll be fine.
i cant get to sleep. i'm worrried. i hope my boy's really fine.

hope to go to lalaland soon.... nightz.

2008-08-14T21:43:00.001+08:00

half day on a friday tmr!!!!!!
hurrAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a busy day for mi tmr i guess.
i so look forward to weekend.
i wanna go to botanical gardens.
so i can push my dearest into the pond.

shhhhhh.... dont tell him.
:)

he'll love mi so much. keke

misses u E.

monster Zee is cominggg.... bye

a few sundays ago. a fun outing with my lovely family. a nice peekture taken by the one i love the most :)

2008-08-14T21:40:00.001+08:00

2008-08-06T22:50:00.002+08:00

happy bday to all August babies:

- Jenny
- Baby sweet E
- Kenneth
- PeiJing
- Jun Hui
- PeiShan

every august of the yr i'm the poorest.

mmm.
my day did not go fantastically well today.
i've neglected my best fren because i was too busy wif work today.
i feel really bad abt it.
she's my one and only gf. and i hav upset her.
sigh.
and the worst thing is... i missed her bday.
how could i...

:(

gonna catch beauty sleep.
ZzzZZzzzzz.

2008-08-01T20:09:00.004+08:00

lalala. my number 400 post!

TGIF!! the rest are going st james tonight. to partieee!
i'm at home now, waiting for my boy to come over.

i bought him doughnuts ytd. so happy. :D
i feel like an angel. lalala.

sis asked y some people are so rich.
some people hav a BM for their bday, some hav a SLK.
some have GP watch, some hav CHANNEL BAG.

well. sometimes i wonder, are these people happy?
in the past, as in b4 i'm wif bf, i think life is juz work.
u work hard, u get promoted, u climb the corporate ladder, u get a good increment, u get a good bonus.
Then, u'll get urself a credit card, then a car, then probably add a few LVs and COACH to ur collection. then continue to work.

the same cycle repeats itself, again and again.

but now, after being wif my boy and my loving colleagues, i feel that there's more to life. leaving those luxuries aside, i still have friends, i still have my family. and most importantly, i know i have someone who stands by me, who encourages mi to move further, who always listen mi grumble abt work and all. i'm so glad i've finally found someone whom i can trust, whom i can share joy and laughter with, whom truely shows that he loves.

i'm so glad to have u in my life my boy.

:D see u later on.

2008-07-27T21:12:00.004+08:00

weekend have not ended but i'm already looking forward to next weekend.

had a great outing today at science center wif my boy. looking forward to the national day week. hope to go watch fireworks again...

momma's went for a short getaway. the house's so quiet, i feel a little lonesome.

hmph.
was younger, like when i was fourteen, i wanna quickly grow up so can go chiong.
when i was 12, i wanna be a model.
when i was 15, i wanted an LV bag for my bday.
when i was 18, i told myself i will drive a convertible one day.
when i was 19, i took up dance classes, hoping tt i will fall in love with it, but failed.
when i was 20, i dreamt about having my own botique.

now that i've grown up, over the yrs, i realise that such things arent important anymore. as in, i realise what i really want. not those little girl's dream anymore.
i just wanna settle down soon.

:D soon soon. very soon.
for tt, i gotta work hard now.

2008-07-25T13:15:00.003+08:00

smack that all on the floor... smack that gimme somemore...

:D cozy cozy fri. hiding under my blanket.

feel so relaxed today; no need go work. the baby's at home is so cuuuuuute. makes mi feel so much like a housewife.

COLD.

i miss my boyfriend.

2008-07-21T21:55:00.002+08:00

i miss my bf.

he always falls asleep after mi, so i always pretend to be sound asleep.
so i can look at him when he sleeps. i miss it X1

he always laugh at me, calls mi a bimbo everyday. makes mi feel so dumb.
i miss it X2

2 nights ago he told mi couples spend 2 weeks of their lifetime kissing. we should kiss more often. i miss it X3

had lovely bfast ytd morning. i miss it X4

bugged on the phone till 12am last night. i miss it X5

kissed my forehead: cant rem when was it. i miss it X6

threaten to fart when i keep irritating u. i dont miss tt. whr got bf like tt one??
hee. u lor.

these few days less busier at workplace. i ended work at 7 today. ive been thinking abt what to get for my boy's bday all day. but cant think of anything. he said dont need, then nvm lo. :D

itz been a loooooooooooooong loooooooooong since i played in the sun, play beach volley, go to the gym, run around, go swim.........

LAZY LA. last time more vain, put thick thick mascara to work. now got bf already really very lazy. foundation oso dont bother to put anymore. dont bother to work out anyomre. :D

lalala. not working this fri. yay. will enjoy this long weekend. so much to look forward to. excited!

no mon blues today.. keke.

2008-07-20T22:02:00.002+08:00

juz some updates...

woke up early today, had nice bfast at sunny sunshine place and headed for fish spa...
itz a very good business idea. itz ticklish tho, but quite fun.

Saturday
Went to marina sq to watch the fireworks. finally, we watched it together. the last time we did watched the same firework at the same place, but not together. :D it was really sweet.

my helmet got stolen tt night...

Friday
Ended work quite early, like 7plus. then went out for a spin wif dearest.

gr8 weekend, tho we were at home most of the time.

hope the week ahead would be a fun filled one. early night.

2008-07-13T22:24:00.002+08:00

itz a few more hrs to a brand new week again.
so here i am, making full use of watz left for the weekend.

i had a really fantastic weekend. had bfast early in the morn wif jen ytd. she keeps complaining that she's fat when she isnt. anyway, headed home after tt and had a good 4 hrs nap.

E came over for dinner, then after tt we went to watch red cliff. it was a gr8 show, tho it was a "to be continued" one...

E, my bf, is Everything. :D
he made mi laugh, made mi feel so silly, made mi happy...

He brought mi out for bfast today, and then we went to ikea.
i like gg to ikea. we'll juz walk around the place over and over again, to try almost all the chairs, all the sofas and bed, talked about how we want the deco in our home to be, keep laughing, i keep talking like zohan (until he really cannot take it), poked brushes on the display. :D

rushed to the airport in the evening. E rode really fast, almost reaching 140 kmph. itz dangerous, but i like the thrill coz i feel safe. took the skytrain, went to t3, had dinner there...

E asked about not mentioning him often here...

well, i told him it wasnt necessary to keep talking abt ur bf in ur blog. until on the journey home, he didnt talk to me at all. i could see sadness in my boy's eyes. itz until then tt i realize how insensitive i was...

i really am, and i admit it. i think i'm the most insensitive creature in the world sometimes. now, i feel bad. E never fails to make me happy. he msges mi every morning, without fail, for the past 4 mths plus. he never fail to hav bfast wif mi on weekends. he nv fails to send me to work if he could. he nv fails to call mi "dear" in all the sms he sends. he really nv once made mi upset. E's really the perfect bf. but sometimes, i dont realise tt some things that i say, will upset him...

alright. he's calling mi... hav a gr8 week ahead peepz. :D nite nite

d the show beautifu cut

2008-07-11T00:03:00.002+08:00

what time izzit?
NOooo, not tiger time, itz blogging time!!!

hee. watched the show "yi qie wan mei" on the telly juz now and it sets mi thinking.
Plastics. Will you go under the knife, go thru the pain, for beauty??

this episode they talked abt liposuction. i dunno much abt tt, maybe itz juz remove excess oil from ur body. coz i dont hav this prob (yet). i can explain this.

i do control my diet. yes, i do, i try not to supper, and stop when i'm full. i do eat more than 3 meals a day, and my carbo intake is pretty high( i love potatoes and bread). so, ya. But, but, but. i do work out. not vigorously, but juz some crunches and push ups every morn b4 i leave for work. DONT NEED LIPOSUCTION WAT.

but sure i wan bigger boobs. if i were a full B cup will be so purrrrrfect la. They always say god is fair. itz true isnt it?? i've nv been fat in my 22 yrs of life, but
i will NEVER fit into a cup B too. fair?? u make the decision. :D

but beauty lies in the beholder of one's eyes. Like i see my bf look sexier each day.
i look at him when he talk coz i want his nose so badly. i hope we can somehow exchange, and i'll promise to still love him if he had my flatter nose. :D
wonder if he feels the same too. his birthday's coming. maybe icould feed myself everyday wif fats and weigh 120 kg by national day, and give his a surprise. he will love mi so much la. lol.

not laughing at people who've such prob, juz tt i believe the right exercise, the right amt of workout, will make u have the body u wan.

for mi, i cant la, i dont like papayas, ttz y i dont hav big boobs. maybe i should learn to eat the sticky, creamy, tasteless, orangy looking fruit for parrots.

bigger bigger bigger boobs. i hope to wake up tmr and cant fit into any of my LS.

LS = La SenZa or "lai sah". nite nite

2008-07-09T23:36:00.002+08:00

mmm. waiting for bf to call... chatting wif my dearest jen wawa now.
miss her damn alot. i juz kissed her thru msn and she said she missed mi. haha.

been supppppppppppppppppppppppppppeeeeeeeeeeeeeer busy wif work. i got so tired that i fell asleep on my bf's laptop last night. probably missed his smell too much... wanna smell the leftover palm sweat on the key board. haha. i went like, i'm still viwawaing or i had a dream. i dreamt abt the sushido octopus chasing mi in my weird dream. my bf keep telling mi to leave the octopus alone.

In fact, he's the one who should leave the creature wif tentacles on. (i almost spelt testicles) bf keeps eating them. he likes it super much. more than my affair wif sashimis.

my bf... still arent calling. wonder wat he's doing now. maybe he's shaving, or brushing his teeth, and accidently put shaving cream into his mouth. haha.

yawnz. i hav so much to talk abt la, but lazy lei. eyes shutting. ZzzzZ.

today, a collegue ask to suggest things to get for her boy's bday. i say this say tt she all think not good. then i suggested her to give him asurprise. like bringing him to suntec and throw his mobile into the fountain, and say surprise. muahahahaha.

dunno if i do tt to E, will he grab mi on the neck and french mi, or juz throw mi into the fountain and live happily ever after wif the soiled cellphone. wat do u think?? lol.

i gg to sleep now. if not can feel it coming.

p/s: it = kth = kee tao hong. =D

2008-07-05T00:39:00.003+08:00

itz finally weekend. ya. ttz how bad it is.
yr end closing and all. i'm gg crazy soon. hope that everything goes well. and i get to complete my reports on time.

anyway, i'm gg out wif E tme. super looking forward to it. too stressed, cant get to sleep. now too happy, oso cant get to sleep. lol.

took a cab home juz now. the cab driver is really.. i cant think of a word to describe him. he juz keep farting, i dunno y. think he havent shat for the past 2 mth. it smells damn bad. worse than the rubbish chute downstairs.

the smell is damn powerful la, i wind down the window but still can smell. think the uncle muz be thinking "really so smelly meh". yes. its really tt bad. i thought i couldnt make my way back home, but luckily i did. and here i am, blogging.

mmm. lets talk abt men farting. not that we gers hope tt u'll hold on to the gas, butjuz let it out at a less crowded place, or hold it if ure in the car. itz seriously unhygienic la. itz like worse than sniffing glue or wat can u think of.

like what my lovely bf told mi tt day. "gers oso fart mah, they fart already then look around, see whether got peple look at them, then giggle abit, coz the fart sound very cute".

true la, gers do that, sometimes, but itz so much better mannered as compared to FARTING IN THE CAR AND LET EVERYONE SMELL RIGHT. LOL.

haha. can u imagine, my bf and discuss abt fart. its part of our relationship. hahaha

the story abt the red egg

2008-06-28T08:30:00.002+08:00

alright. here i go.

today marks the first mth of a collegue's baby's 1st mth. she brought cakes, some puffs and red eggs. mmm. i took the egg (of coz) and wanted to microwave it. so i headed to the pantry and left the egg on the table and went to the ladies to pee (after lunch mah, but i peed damn little). it took mi less than a min la, and when i went back to the pantry, the egg was gone. nowhere to be found. not in the fridge, not even in the dustbin.

i know itz only an egg, but it's my egg. haha. no la, juz wondering who could be so hungry and so gian peng la. egg only lor.
it really shocks me to know there're such people around.

anyhow, i'm gg out wif E later. E's also mine, his name begins wif E too. EGG.

lol.

2008-06-26T23:13:00.002+08:00

lalala. am back. for a lil update. exams have ended. i finally fell sick, and recovered. and now... busy wif work again.

so addicted to viwawa. muahahahaaa.... misses the weekend. TGIF tmr. yay. the zohan show. cant wait to hav a good luff wif my E. :D

2008-06-03T22:45:00.000+08:00

the law paper was a disaster.
i hope a miracle will happen.

2008-06-01T15:13:00.002+08:00

itz been a really busy week!!!
itz stay home for mi these couple of days.
itz the exams stress.
itz the busy workload.
itz the terribly hot whether.
itz all making mi unwell.

had a gr8 bfast today wif my folks. :D
when was the last time u sat down and dine wif ur parents?
itz been a long long long time for u too right.
itz time u spend some time with ur family.

bah......
getting back to my books.
hope i can clear the law paper on tues.

i love law i love law i love law i love larrrrgh!!!!
juz hope i can get thru this nicely.
lalala

2008-05-26T13:39:00.002+08:00

letz talk abt trust today.
friends. i hav plenty. i clique along fine with anyone. guy frens, girlfrens.
but when we talk abt true frens, juz how many do u have?

i think i'm one of the few luckier ones around. true frens, i hav 4.
true frens doesnt hurt u. they dont upset you either. they will be there for u when u need them, and when they need someone around, u'll be there too.

NOT:
when he tells u how much he liked you, but tell everyone that ure a biatch.
not when he's up to no good.
not when he wants something in return.
not when he made u feel ure a loser.

forget it. life, i still gotta move on. i wonder when u will start to grow up.

luckily, i still hav my boy. i hav other frens. i dont need u.

i hav uncle K who will cheer mi up always too. although we seldom meet up now, we're still frens. we wont hurt each other in any way.

keke.

2008-05-13T23:34:00.001+08:00

muahahaha. no need to work tmr and on thurs.
gonna rest well, play good and study hard.

i bought some nice coffee... so bored, so lonely.

miss xiao hei. misses E.

2008-05-11T09:27:00.002+08:00

morning morning... itz MOTHERZ DAY today!!!!
:D
think everyone should be having a gr8 time wif their families.
as for mi, well... shall see and update u later.

attended the last lesson ytd for both papers. really felt so good. i dont hav to rush for lessons and skip dinner often anymore. really hope i can clear this 2 papers this sem.

had a little tiff wif E on Fri night. and sat morn we were still quarreling. glad that things got better after we talked last night.

and Xiao HEi... haha. he's well again. juz that he sometimes hav very high fever, like 90+ degree C. and he's super super sexy can?? sometimes on the road, i feel that he's saying "look at mi, look at mi". haha. ok. i'm crazy today. havent totally wake up.

had a great dinner at jurong west last evening. yae, itz been a long time since i last went there. coincidentally, a collegue's ex husband lives there too. she asked if the place looked the same and i told her no. things arent the same anymore. the stadium is no longer under construction. the mrt line is almost done.

kk. E's here. we gg out for bfast. byeee.

2008-05-04T21:26:00.002+08:00

sometimes i dunno if i'm too old to still blog. haha

itz been a long long time i know, since i last updated. exams are coming. and i hav stocktakes scheduled at my workplace. i hardly hav time for myself.

anyway, went to wild wild wet on labour day. my first time there, and his as well. it was pretty fun. :) sat we did some shopping at MS and i bought a pull over to pamper myself. keke.

okok. i didnt go out myself. i went out wif E.
i like introducing new people.... :)

E's my boy, i've known him for some time.
he owns an aprilia RS 125, which we call him XIAO HEI.
XIAO HEI is sexy, really sexy. but recently, he's not well.
he's in the garage now, and i miss him quite bad. i hope he'll be fine.

a mth ago, E had decided to put XIAO HEI on sale.
i was sooooooooOOOoo :( super sad la.
but in the end we decided not to sell him.
He's been with us all the time, brought us to so many nice places.
so we cant bear to part wif him.

Hope XIAO HEI will be fine after the surgery this sat :)

E and i hav 2 babies. we adopted them a couple of weeks ago.
one's called becham, the other's called becky. but i juz call them baby la, coz they're only a mth old.
they're actually rabbits, if i hav given u a shock earlier... haha

keke. i've had a gr8 weekend wif E, and i'm juz enjoying watz left b4 mon comes.
i will update soon. i promise, i promise.
:)

next time tell u all more abt E...
:)

2008-04-20T19:29:00.002+08:00

lalala....
weekend's coming to an end. juz got some time left to utilize watz left.
well well.

looooooong day today. went for a lil outing to spca. got lost at bartley rd, and round and round, on the bike in the hot sun... but it was pretty memorable tho. adopted 2 rabbits for junior, who often fights in sch. itz time for her to learn what's being caring... so yae.

mmm. work's still pretty fine till now, juz that exams are coming.
so stressed up. i dunno to start revising.

MmmMmMMM. i'm super broke now. waiting for my next pay to come in, and then, SHOPPING!!! lalala.

2008-04-09T07:09:00.002+08:00

itz been a month, and i'm still not getting better at all. ya, i'm still sick. dont be surprised. with the workload coming in and all, i hardly have time for myself. always shag out after reaching home everyday.

on monday on my way to work, there was an accident at cck station. i was at yew tee then. it was so chaotic, i couldnt call a cab, neither could i get onto a bus. so i walked to cck interchange and met 2 colleagues.

whatever that happened to the man who wanted to take his life, i hope he had done what he think is right. itz a life. how long do we even live?? i think itz really wasted to juz end it. i have been thru worst shit, i think itz really the worst, but i still kept mine, my life i mean.

well well...
mom prepared bfast. gonna eat b4 i take the medicine.... i really hope ill get well soon. real soon. keke. enjoy ur day peeps.

2008-04-03T07:16:00.002+08:00

morning...
itz been a mth since the new office moved. and i'm getting used to traveling there.

getting onto a bus at 8.30am is disastrous. if u manage to squeeze in, u still will get squeezed on the bus, like canned sardines. itz worse than taking the train i tell u. and when i reach office, i think already smell like some tuna, even with gucCi RuCh or GuccI enVy or...........

=D

and when i reach office each day, i tell myself "I'VE SURVIVED". like survival la.

anyway. no classes today. yay. at least can sit down and spend some time on my assignments.

MMm. i miss the sun. beach volley. the beach.
and i truly look forward to my little vacation.
have a gr8 day peeps.

2008-03-22T10:36:00.002+08:00

am back. itz easter on thurs so we had a little gathering at west coast for supper. we then headed to kent ridge park. jump around, as usual, until everyone got tired then we sat down and talked... talked abt everything. beach holidays, cigars, and... the c string! :)

did some groceries shopping at iMm. took some nice peektures, but get anything for myself...

mmm. very stressed with work. always gotta stay till late.
think my body cant take it anymore. and finally, i fell sick.
i dont like to be sick, coz if i do, like now, i juz feel so lethargic and dont feel like moving at all.

itz been a long time since i went shopping. be it orchard or bugis....
i neeeeed to shoooooooooooooooooooooop, badly...
but not now.... a few days ba, when i'm feeling better.
:) enjoy ur weekends people.

2008-03-19T23:32:00.002+08:00

sigh. i've upset someone. someone who's so important to mi, who made a difference in my life.

maybe i'm really wrong. i shouldnt let other guys send mi home. come to think abt it, i felt so bad.

i dunno. i really dunno...

maybe we can nv be together. i will never be good enough to be his gf. never. if i really do, i'm not myself anymore.

fcuk it. fcuk it all. night.

2008-03-08T17:57:00.001+08:00

oei... i did this personalty test from my dearest uncle k's blog...

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

i dunno if everyone's result is accurate, but itz so so true. esp abt being independent and all. yae, ttz so mi.

2008-03-08T17:44:00.002+08:00

weekend have been pretty fine so far.
but i havent been drinking for quite some time. gf's busy wif work. my workload's getting heavier each day... everyone's busy wif their own life.

not been working out, not been gg to the beach. but bfast almost everyday is already good enough. haha. putting on weight :)

dunno wat to update about also. nothing's happpening been gg on for mi... juz work... but guess i'll be gg away for a small vacation after my exams. which is soon, i guess.

sometimes, it sets mi thinking. wat is happiness??? i hav finally found the answer. itz simplicity.

watz happiness to u guys then??

2008-02-25T23:16:00.002+08:00

lalala...
i'm not missing lar...

was recently bz wif sch and work. and i screwed my last exams.
anyway... my office's relocated. no more bfast sessions at orchard towers or at starbucks.

well well...
i'm not in love la. shy shy.
:)

juz that i'm packed wif work and sch.
poor mi huh.

i wanna go walawala soon oso
uncle k la. not good, nv date mi....
keke.

2008-02-12T07:19:00.000+08:00

Boo... am back!!!
doing fine and good. juz a lil update...

itz cny. been bz wif visiting and all. itz been some time since junior went to sch. she's doin gr8 there. will be enrolling her for dance classes soon.

things been gr8 for mi as well. i'm someone who NV believes in fate. but when things seems so coincidental, itz hard to not believe it. i hav found the one who'll drive mi to the beach at 2am in the morning, who'll make bfast for mi, who'll look after mi when i fell sick, who bought junior and i out for little excursions, and whom i'm so proud of.

Mmm. we're not together juz as yet, but i'm quite sure that.... this will turn out fine. i'll try my very best not to screw this up... we shall see.

and, uncle K, i'm fine lar, doit worry abt mi. =D starting to get used to the new haircut. after so many weeks. keke. letz do some catching up really soon!!!!

hav a fun day at work today peeps.

2008-01-27T16:10:00.000+08:00

someone's complaining abt mi not updating again.
been busy wif work lar.

no walawalalalala this week; been super packed wif work and school.
ytd went to marina pier at 12+, den to mustafa, where i bought a watch.
very "ah fook"... see already sure luff.

bzbzbz....
looking forward to CNY!!!!!!!!!

2008-01-20T21:11:00.000+08:00

weekends coming to an end again...
i had a new haircut at colour bar ytd.
need some time to get used to it...

had classes ytd and then had some nice Japanese food for dinner.
after which we went to watch body 19, which i think was a fantastic show.
the scrip writer muz be a very brainey person.

slept my whole sunday away. chatting wif uncle k now.
CNY is coming. yet another little holiday. haha.

Mmm. as for my prev entry...
well, we meet many people in our lives. some come and go, some will juz stay.
if really cant clique, then gotta move on.
yes, i do hav many friends. but when we talk abt true frens, how many do u hav??

i can count that wif one hand, and i think thatz enough.
=)

2008-01-14T23:34:00.000+08:00

Mmm. monday.. black black monday.

was terribly tired. i had lessons and all. havent even hav the time to hav dinner.

my dearest uncle k had a bad day at work today. i can totally understand how he felt coz the same thing happened to mi too. mine's not at work tho... juz disappointed.

i hav never thought that i'll be the talk of the town man. wtf. i think itz terribly dumb and childish when u talk behind my back when i dont even know what's gg on?? it doesnt bothers mi. not even a bit. i hav so many other frens. i dont even need u baby boys and gers. go back to ur mommy lar.

I, am wat i am. it wont hurt or bother mi. if u think i'm a slut, pls, say it right in front of mi alright. whoever who started it, if ure a guy, i hope u'll hav a pussy tmr morn. if ure a lady, pls, dont disgrace us. i hope ur nipples will be black like charcoal when u wake up tmr morn.

yes. I'M ANGRY!!!

i hope tmr would be a better day. for myself, and for uncle k.
good night.

2008-01-14T01:13:00.000+08:00

weeeet...
juz got home from walalalalala.....
keke.

wif uncke k and ken.
at least the weekend's not wasted wif beer and music. :)

uncle told his ex-colleague abt mi. he seems so shocked. haha.

and when i went 7-11 to help uncle k get cigarettes, they wanted to check my id.
lol. happy nia.

meeting at 9am tmr morn. hope i dont screw it...
gg to lalaland. Zzzz.
nigotz people....

2008-01-08T00:10:00.000+08:00

bah!!!

sch's tough. but work's pretty fun tho.
fun when u hear him scream WTF to someone right in front of u.
itz crazy u'll say. but a demanding boss definitely motivates mi to work really hard.

mmm. havent been updating lately. i'll be so damn shag after i reach home everyday. and i dont end at 6 on the dot, so ya... Zzz. i can sleep till 2+ in the weekend.

went to watch American gangster on sat wif eug, jh, ch, pj... quite fun.

fri went to dxo wif lio, pj, lq and jen. nothing much there. really. except that it was my first time to dxo and the first time i took a night rider.
i chatted wif eug on the bus, tellin him how lonely i was. he, as usual, will cheer mi up wif all his lame stories. and how he wants to open a chicken rice stall and name it jiKEN lice or something. lol

anyway, someone juz told mi that he scold his gf a bitch. pls guys, nv call a girl a bitch. not even ur gf. even u regret, itz really too bad.
no one's ever called mi a bitch (tho i muz admit i behave like one at times)...
i've nv really called anyone a bustard either.
these words are really hurting. pls dont use it unnecessarily!!

nitez!!

2008-01-04T07:01:00.000+08:00

mmm. last day of the week.
damn stressed. went to sch for class ytd. law is really tough.

havent been really sleepin good these couple of days.
guess itz because of adapting to work and junior gg to sch and all...
sigh, it really sucked.

i pray for the man ken, uncle and i saw dat day.i hope he's fine.
hope tt brother's bookin out later on. =)

lalala...
Zzzz

2008-01-01T11:23:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2008!!!!

Mmm. i went for countdown last night. it was great! and Sweet. :)
went to hav our last and worst dinner for the yr 2007. it was incredibly disgusting!!!
we had seafood at marina, and coincidently, it was their last day there.

we went to party world to sing as well. those present were pj, liting, my dearest brother, jh and ch. had lotz of fun. if all goes well, we'll be gg to perth in the middle of the yr!!!

then, the countdown near esplanade. the fireworks was great!! the bangalalalalas were sick! lol.

itz a new yr. letz start everything afresh. forget all the unhappy events that took place last yr and look forward to the most beautiful stuffs.

we dont live our future backwards. move on people. love u all. hugz.

2007-12-28T22:18:00.000+08:00

my new yr resolution for 2007 (see january's entry):
1. earn more $$$
2. put on some weight
3. spend more time at home
4. have lesser fights and quarrels wif dearest
5. spend more time wif friends

1,3,5: achieved.

Mmm. letz talk abt the greatest and the most terrible things that i've been thru this yr...

greatest:
1. graduated from poly
2. got my driving license
3. took up riding lessons
4. was employed the whole yr round
5. partied alot
6. taking courses now
7. had a gr8 xmas
8. watched almost every movie in the box office.
9. learnt some designing skills from aunt. more to learn

the not so great stuff:
1. i broke up wif my bf of approx. 5 yrs
2. i fell down from the bike, leaving 2 scars on those legs i love the most

this yr's been pretty good. i have gotten over wif the breakup. but the scar...
it will be there forever....

2008 new yr resolution...
hmmm tough.

1. complete stage 2 of my studies
2. get promoted to an executive position
3. save some money; do less shopping and partying (tough one)
4. go for a backpack trip
5. get my class 2b license
6. get diving license
7. more time wif my family and frenz
8. more sleep
9. learn to cook (itz so not mi to say this but i WILL conquer it)

mmm. guess ttz abt it. dont intend to get a car by 08 unless i get a promotion.
no bf for the yr 08 unless u can prove to mi ure different. lol
no lar, cannot hav bf. so i will perform better at work.

lala. thatz abt all. gg to bed.
u people go do up a new yr resolution list for mi to see too! keke.
nite.

2007-12-27T07:10:00.000+08:00

everytime when someone says "mony is not a problem to mi", it sets mi thinking...
how much more do i hav to work to ever say that? or how much is even enough???

i'm pretty stressed up wif work. happy workin there, but the workload is crazy.
i hav insomnia everynight. i hope that it'll get better soon.

thursday!! 2 more days to weekend. work hard yae.!!

2007-12-25T11:16:00.000+08:00

Merry xmas!!!!
i went to snow city wif junior to experience snow.
i didnt quite enjoy it, but she did.
haha. at least something special for xmas.

den had dinner, lots of catching up, and shopping.
collected my payslip, but havent got my pay cheque.

lalala. the yr's coming to an end in less than a week.
itz time to come out wif some new yr resolutions.

going for xmas lunch later on...
u guys enjoy the holiday yae!!
=)

2007-12-23T10:02:00.000+08:00

so much catching up to do this xmas.
thurs was wif my dearest sisters. i was damn late for the meetup. did the xmas exchange in town and then to starbucks at civic wif someone special.

fri was rushing something impt until quite late. i had a terriblle headache tt day. but the someone special brought some panadols for mi and looked really worried. :) he made mi smile the first time that whole day.

ytd was coffee at starbucks again. and some shopping at cwp. the someone special is really special. he's the only BOY tht can make mi smile smile smile other than my dearest uncle K. haha

and today.... brunch wif my dearest gf who is still in bed. keke. Mmm. hav been meeting the special someone for consecutively 3 days. will i go out wif him today too? :)

notice i mention BOY?? :) am not being secretive and all. will intro him to u soon. my new close fren. keke.

2007-12-19T07:27:00.000+08:00

Zzzzzz. not getting enough sleep everyday!!!
stressed. but today's a dress down day, so somehow itz a lil better.

tmr's a PH again. this yr's coming to an end. xmas shopping?? i hav not done that yet. hav to squeeze out time today or tmr.

tmr's xmas dinner wif sisters. miss them loads.

i think i had a little too much ytd, head was too heavy to get to sleep. i feel like a zombie now.

anyway, enjoy ur day peeps. if u took leave on fri or mon, hav a gr8 weekend!!

2007-12-15T22:57:00.000+08:00

i'm back from chalet.
damn high now, havent been sleeping for the past 30 over hrs. haha.

Mmm. now that the vacation is coming to an end, i have sort up the matters that hav been bothering mi for quite some time.

i kept quite most of the time. u asked if i was unhappy.
you asked mi wat i was thinking, i juz smiled.
when i ask u back the same question, u smiled back too, and said it felt nice to be at a quiet place.

i dont understand u at all and i never will.

sometime ago, i went to watch sunrise alone in the beach. i was alone. all alone.
and those who jogged and walked pass mi are lovely couples and families.
at that point of time, i should be feeling lonely. but i wasnt.
i looked at the orangey red sun, then the sea. and i told myself
"i still hav a long long way to go. many many more sunrise to look forward to... move on girl."

well. pack all these memories up and keep it into the storeroom.
gonna do some shopping tmr and start my life afresh = my new job.

i'm soOooooooo excited.

i'll try to post the peeektures i took wif my fat tummy. haha, i wore super low cut shorts.

nite nite peeps. enjoy ur sat.

and ya, i watch warloads ytd night too. it was gr8. andy lau was awesome!

2007-12-14T11:42:00.000+08:00

itz getting dusty here... :)
yae, my paper ended. and my lil vacation is coming to an end.
went to town to do some xmas shopping on wed, had dinner wif eugene, PJ, CH and JH ytd, and today....

Mmmm. a night out wif some friends.

well, at least i had a break before starting work all over again.

alright. guess my next entry will be abt my new job.
xmas is coming. wat do u wan for xmas?
:)

2007-12-10T00:10:00.000+08:00

Mmmm...
my last paper tmr.
i'm poor, i'm broke.

:(

and i havent been working since i left my job.
itz coming to 3 weeks.

oh man, i'll end this yr poorly wif a fat tummy.
:( sad lar.

2007-12-06T23:22:00.000+08:00

nothing much to blog about lately.

3 yrs, 4 mth... and still counting.
thatz how old my blog is.

so much hav happened. from the patch up to the breakup.
from my o levels holidays till i finish poly.
from an immature, insensible schoolgirl to a career- minded woman.

ok, not implying anything. i'm not upset and all. probably juz feeling emotional.

"y do u play wif my hair" i asked
"coz itz soft, it smells nice, and i like u" he said
and i juz smiled.

"y do u look at mi everytime when the traffic light turns red" i always asked.
"because i wanna look at you when i'm not driving" always the same reply from him.

"y do u offer to send mi home when i'm drunk?" i asked
"because i love u" he said.

one day, he asked:
"y did u not tell mi all these until i found out from my friend"
"leave mi alone" i said.
"pls let mi take care of u" he said
"LEAVE MI ALONE" i screamed. and left.

it happened 2 yrs ago.
and i really regretted being so mean.
i could hav put thous words in a better way.
uve found happiness. u'll nv play wif my hair, nv hear mi talk abt going to the beach, grumble about work, nv ask mi to put the pic i took wif u on friendster...

i'll nv ask u to do silly things like watch the sunset, wash ur car, hav bfast, force u drink vodka, play wif newborn kittens in the playground...

i've really realised it all too late. but i'm really glad that we're still best buds.
the flowers are from u. this time, i didnt throw it away. coz itz sunflower, not roses. :)i know u'll be reading, but u always dont tag. anywaay, thanks.

MONDAY
"Familiar things, familiar furniture, everything seems so familiar" i said
"yes, nothing here hav changed" you said.
i kept quiet.
"wat about ur heart??" i asked myself, silently.

2 different person.
one who expects nothing in return and treats u like a princess and u takes him for granted.
the other is the one that u've put in so much effort. but... unsure. no answer. there'll probably nv be an answer.

i've loved before. i really did.

LOVE = joy, happiness, warmth, comfort, assurance + pain, lost, emptiness, disappointment + RESPONSIBILITY.

wat abt u babes and dudes? really love before???
:)
dont be shy. my tagboard is for u to tag u silly people.

2007-12-03T12:03:00.000+08:00

my audit paper is 2 days away.
luckily hav finished gg thru, juz gotta do some memorising and i'll be ready.

didnt really do much revision ytd.
went to imm wif my gf to buy Christmas tree.
i'm damn aunty can. bought the decorations from daiso.
the tree's gonna be blue and silver. thought of using gold, but too loud la.
:)

Mmmm. i hav cravings for ice-cream man <3

i'm the ice-cream monsteress, uncle K is the monster. haha.
think he's doing quite well on his 3rd day at the new salon ba.
uncle, ever since u started gg back to work on sat my phone became so quiet.

anyhows, enjoy ur mon peeps. no monday blues for mi these couple of weeks.
:)

2007-12-02T10:59:00.000+08:00

the killer paper is 3 days away.
i cant wait for everything to be over.
the new job, christmas, then new yr.
3 public holidays on 3 consecutively weeks.
good; good....

went to watch HERO a few days ago.
Mmm, good show, tho when i was watching i already slowly catch wat's happening.
the director muz be a very clever person. at least he's alot smarter than mi. :)

the yr's coming to an end. 3 more weeks.
more bills to settle... more things to pay for.

anyhow, enjoy ur sunday.

2007-11-24T22:02:00.000+08:00

this's the nice side of her.

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now, ltz take a look at the bad one.

P.S i didnt teach her that. :)

2007-11-24T21:57:00.000+08:00

we took some peektures wif our new LuMeX. :)

itz been a long time since i uploaded a pic.

she told mi she wanna do kickboxing and martial arts.
kill mi please.

2007-11-20T07:04:00.000+08:00

u ask mi to update. den i'll juz do a short entry today. :)
had a gr8 weekend la. went to the beach on sat. then hav dinner wif my family.

den went out for a lil wwhile at night wif uncle k. haha.
Fion. muahahaha. always remember it man.

ytd we talked abt being old and fat. i think itz really scary.
but if there's one day to come where my face is dry and wrinkled, i will giv BotEx - dunno if itz spelt this way, an option.

scary la uncle k.
haha.

preparing to go work now.
today shall wear white.
4 more days to go. keke.

2007-11-11T11:26:00.001+08:00

SCORPIO - The Gorgeous One
Loves being in long
relationship s.Likes to give a good
fight for what they want. Extremely
outgoin g. Loves to help people in
times of need. Best kisser. Good
personality. Stubborn. A caring
person. One of a kind. Gorgeous smile.
Not one to mess with. Are the most
attractive people on earth!

Oh... best kisser??
muahaha.

2007-11-10T20:09:00.001+08:00

my previous post was a lil too harsh. :) there are good guys around too.
I HAV NOTHING AGAINST MEN!!!
keke.

i went to adIdAs sample sale today, wif bestie and junior. it was crazyyyyyy...
i bought ALOT of stuff. when i said alot i mean.... ALOT.
=)

hmmm. mommy's coming back only in a couple of days time. miss her, and dad too. :)
another week down, 2 more to go.

exams are coming so so soon.
i can feel the stress. the nights where i get drunk wif coffee.
argh.
:)

goodbye 20

WELCOME 21!!!!

keke....
muuuuuuuaH!

2007-11-08T18:40:00.000+08:00

there's a woman behind a successful man. but watz behind a successful woman?
-NO ONE-

2007-11-07T22:58:00.000+08:00

itz a public holiday tmr!!!

the rest are partying but i'm loaded wif work to do at home.
=( i wanna get a white full face helmet!!

2007-11-07T00:14:00.000+08:00

itz really good to hear ur good friend patch things up wif his or her ex.
itz happy. :)

hmmm. lotz to do in office this couple of days. bad bad headache.
one more day tmr, the week will be easier.

i suddenly hav the urge to spin on a merry go round.
dont really see one around anymore, but i hope i can juz spin on it, go round and round and spin everything away.

nite nite. i'm Zzzz... i'll SNORE BIG TIME tonight. haha.

2007-11-03T21:58:00.000+08:00

another week down. 3 more to go!
=) itz so happy to see my parents going for a lil honeymoon.
but there again, the house will be so quiet.

guess i'll be spending bday alone this yr.
enjoy ur weekends once again people.

2007-10-28T20:52:00.000+08:00

hmmm.
how did u guys spend ur weekends??? i had a hapieeee weekend.
went for a gr8 bfast wif my bestie and my junior ytd morning. yae, i still like to hav bfast =) send my bestie to the train station and then went to the arcade wif my junior.

hmmm. sounds so 'ah lian' la, go arcade. but nope, i'm only addicted to the game where u scoop the candies and when it hits jackpot the price will drop. junior likes the game so much, so i'll juz accompany her to play. but she'll always gimme the sour look when we gtg. then i'll tell her i like the machine too, next time i'll buy it for her. haha. itz a big fat lie i know, but wat to do???

hmmm... uncle k should know wat i'm talking abt. keke.

anw after that when we got home, momma wants to get some stuff for her holiday wif dad next week. so we went to................... MUSTaFA. dunno whether itz spelt like tt lar, but the place is not that bad. itz alot better than wat it was 5 yrs ago. and many chinese and ang mohs does their shopping there too.

hmmm. after that we had dinner at central. itz Halloween party ytd night. but my pay is not in yet, so... yar, went home.

hmmmm. lurve mua family. should spend more time wif them man. keke.

2007-10-26T14:42:00.000+08:00

One week down. 4 more to go.
=)

V is having a lil holiday himself today. tho we've been quite used to being alone now, but i still feel that he's very very far away now.

yesterday, i cant get to sleep. i got home quite late, was really lethargic but i didnt go to bed. i juz lay on the sofa and dream.

i thought about our past; the beautiful memories we shared.
our trip to the island last holiday. (= beautiful
going to bed wif the special someone next to u, and waking up to see him still soundly asleep. i will always remember the feeling, coz i will never feel it ever again.

juz when i was typing this post, i heard something terrible from my friend. itz upsetting, itz hurting. i cried. but i told myself that this is gonna be the last time i will cry, the last time i miss lessons, the last time my buddies see mi unhappy, as all these hav to come to an end. after tonight. i'll be happy again.

one should learn to love oneself first before loving someone. lurve urself babes and dudes.

2007-10-20T18:54:00.000+08:00

i was talking abt the DeAth nOte on my previous entry.
and guess wat, i read half the book today. and i can understand wat it meant. quite nice. i liked it.

but dEath nOte really so "zai" meh?
if the deAtH nOte falls in ur hand, whose name would u wanna write in it??

keke.

2007-10-20T01:20:00.000+08:00

lalala.
2 days mc for mi. this time itz not chao geng. i really fell sick.

ytd went to ra0uL sales tho. bought a huge bag of stuff. dress, shirts and scarf.
i dont really shop for men's shirts. so when i saw the huge crowd at the size 16 section, i started to think abt ABCDEFG. i was daydreaming a lil and guess wat?? i really saw ABCDEFG la! i thought i was dreaming too, but no lei. itz really him. quite stunned tho. coz itz really coincidental. yae, i dont believe in fate (not juz for now). but itz reallllly.... wat can u still say when u think abt someone and he appear right in front of u man. haha

ok, anw, i didnt say bye to him (i was tooo engrossed wif the sale)=) and then a friend drove us for lunch at MS. yae. itz a cafe very near DouBlE O. so had lunch a bit, rot a little and went back to town.

my flu was so bad yesterday that i almost fainted. i swear. i think my face turned white. and spent the whole day in town wif my gf until late evening. yes, i missed class again. =) keke.

yep. uncle k. i'm reading the death note, but i dont quite understand. maybe my chi really sux. now u know... i cant even read simple chinese words. now u know, finally. haha.

2007-10-11T16:58:00.000+08:00

i think something's terrible wrong wif mi.
i can be damn crazy at one moment and feel depress 5 minutes later.

i'm not happy at all even tmr's the last workinday for the week.

i'm gg out later after lessons. dunno will be able to get any sleep anot.

and tmr, work, then lessons, den party - again.

hmmm. seems very routined.... i dunno man. i'm so sleeeeeepie now.........

2007-10-06T07:24:00.000+08:00

sat morn.
i'm gg to work soon.
a bad hang-over.

reached home at 4+ and slept at 5.
woke up at 7. yea, at least i still got up. =)

2 pubs. 5 beers, 3 martinies. gr8 companion.
yea. feeling gloomy again. but this time round...
i guess i can handle things better.

64 miss calls from an unfaithful man....

complicated??? u decide!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-10-03T07:14:00.000+08:00

had a gr8 evening yesterday wif dis special person. =)
u know y i say ure special? coz u made my hair nice nice and made mi =), and brought mi to the place i like...
keke.

yep life's hard now. but it'll be better in time to come. so gotta work hard.
i feel so good after talking to u ytd. =)
and now, i've really decided wat to do abt my job.

hav a gr8 day everyone.
SMILEEEEE

who knows, someone might fall in love wif ur smile. =)

2007-10-01T21:53:00.000+08:00

work work work work............
i cant wait for my lil beach outing wif gf this weekend...
itz been quite some time.

=)

i hav nothing to write abt.
my life suddenly seems so grey.

2007-09-23T12:28:00.000+08:00

lalala....
i've had a gr8 time partying wif my girls last night.
i got home at 4, studied till 5, woke up at 9 and went for lessons.

=) thatz the kinda life i'm living. dont be surprised, dont be shocked.
so if u were to ask "hey, y are u single"... now u know y.

not many guys like their baby to be ambitious. thus, it explains y...
i'm already used to it anyway. i was so stressed wif work yesterday
afternoon and i didnt talk to anyone at all.
but he called mi in msn and sang songs for mi.
i'm touched, i'm impressed.
i really am......

he then made my day =) sunny again, and afterthat i headed down to partieeeee....

and now, sunday. rest and enjoy the day..........

2007-09-20T07:35:00.000+08:00

sigh. i think i'm really falling sick soon.
the work at my client's place this week is killing mi.
i still gotta attend lessons later on. bad. real bad.

anw, if u wan a free wash and blow (ur hair of coz) and if u happen to be free on fri(tmr) at 9pm, pls let mi know. my dearest uncle K is looking for a model.
=)

uncle K, see, i'm so good la... haha.

gg to the freaking client's place. she's not so nice. tell u abt her another day.

those who'll be taking their exams soon, pls study hard.
and for those working, work hard too la.
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
the best motivation to move on....
=)

2007-09-18T23:23:00.000+08:00

bah.........
workload's killing mi. all the jobs are urgent and hav to meet tight deadlines.
i think i really cannot tk it any more.

sigh. i dont even have time to spend my pay. thatz not too bad a thing tho. can save $$$$$$$$$ for holidays.

u guys work hard too yea... i'm gg to lalaland.
cya there. =)

2007-09-11T07:12:00.000+08:00

ahye. rainy rainy morn.
i juz had a nice warm bath. =)
itz gonna be a looong week for mi. ytd i worked till quite late.
i guess i hav to go back on time today. but not quite possible.
today is uncle k's day off. jealous la.

ZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzZZzzZZzZZZZZzzzz

2007-09-05T07:10:00.000+08:00

mOrNInG eVerYonE....

i'm eeeeeeeeeearly today. haha

ytd had a gr8 evening shopping wif uncle K. we didnt hav icecream tho. but he treated mi good dinner. haha. throughout dinner, we talked about work, my bad experience 2 weeks ago, my dream car... and we played wif our food; as usual. this time, guess wat we played wif. u'll never guess it man. itz fish eggs. muahahaha...

anyway, we did some shopping after that and we both bought skinnys... uncle bought many stuff, including a pair of leather shoes, which i think looked great on him...

and yep, as usual we luffed our way on the train ride home.
had a really happy evening yesterday. thanks uncle K...
work is not easy... so gotta work hard. =)

2007-09-04T10:16:00.000+08:00

in the office alone now.
so bored. so much work to do.
so much things to look forward to.
so much that i'm choking...

gg for a little shopping wif my dearest uncle k later.
haha, mushy mushy... but i miss him la. especially his nonsense.

muahaha. i had a gr8 weekend. but i'm sick now.

u guys tk good care and dont fall sick yea. =)

muackz.

2007-08-25T21:18:00.000+08:00

i've had enough sleep. finally. haha.
i went to get my hair and nails done, did some shopping, had a spontaneous breakfast. wanted to workout today but was too lazy. haha. i shall go to the gym if i wake up early tmr.

hav been good this week. i didnt party. just stayed at home and read the papers. rented some dvds to watch and chatted wif my family...

itz only now i realised how much i've missed out. i've been so so busy wif work. but come to think of it, there's really no point to. as in there's no point to work so hard when people who're lazier get better paid than you. itz really upsetting.

tmr would be gg for lessons. 10am to 5pm... i dunno if i will fall asleep man. after that would be dinner... and i hope all will turn up. coz i miss them all... haha

mon is gg to be quite disastrous. work and then dinner wif my collegues. itz not that i dont like them and my work, but i really dont belong there. and there's really nothing to talk about to the rest. they're nice la, but really nothing to talk about at all.

anw, i will bear wif it for the time being, as i believe perseverances will make mi a better person and bring mi further.

i'm gg to be a successful baby... keke. =)

2007-08-24T00:36:00.001+08:00

sigh. so much work to do at my workplace.
sigh sigh sigh.

the good thing is: there's no lessons tmr.

the bad thing is: there's late night shopping tmr in town. my wallet's gonna be empty again.

muahaha....

letz talk about the things i miss....

ok. here i go...

1. i miss school. yea. i really do. even the projects. itz better than my freaking work

2. i miss the good old days. coz we used to do so much shopping, but now... sigh. i'm gonna hav a wardrobe malfunction soon man.

3. i miss ur smell. yes i do...

4. i miss eating ice-cream. wif u la uncle k. so busy wif work now.... gRRrrr...

5. i miss my friends. everyone's so busy wif work...

6. i miss my blankieee. mommmy threw it away coz she thinks it smells.

7. i miss my messy room. now i dont even hav the chance to mess it. i'm hardly at home now...

8. i miss madam wong. long time since uve close down yea. haha

9. i miss you.

10. i think i need to sleep now. i dont wanna be a walking zombie on a fridaeeee.

enjoy ur last working day of the week people. (not for mi though)...

s
i
g
h
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2007-08-16T14:00:00.000+08:00

ahye. itz raining again.
and i'm sleeeeeeepy.

sigh. NO LESSONS FOR MI TODAY!!

=)

2007-08-07T13:49:00.000+08:00

i dint like it when people who doesn't knows anything about mi steps into my life, tells mi wat a jerk my previous bf was, treat mi nice and sweet, and then disappear.

itz not that i have feelings for these group of people i dunno y. but i think itz the encouragement and support that made mi felt better.

but at the end of the day, the jerk is not my previous bf. itz myself. in fact, i still love him. i know itz dumb i noe. we can lie to everyone about everything, but our heart will never lie. only our heart knows exactly who we adore the most. i have been feeling terrible without the man i used to call baby, my bf, my king. but i didnt show it. last weekend when he smsed and asked if i was fine, i was really over the moon. it felt so so good. itz gr8 to know that he still cared, but watz over, is over. i know. =)

alright. let's juz get back to work.
and i'm fine. really. =)

2007-08-06T16:36:00.000+08:00

haha.
i'm alone in office today.
so much work to do. itz nv ending.
party on wed. cant wait for the day to come.

my weekends was pretty fun. shopping wif my bestie and short meetup wif poly mates.
gheez.

if i were rich, i'll buy a yatch and stay in it. everyone thinks i'm nuts.
if only. =)

if i have lots of $$$, i would, and will invite everyone over for a drink.
gheez. i beta stop dreaming and get back to work.

enjoy ur monday people

2007-08-03T06:57:00.000+08:00

ahye.
itz been a long long time i know.

3 movie dates on 3 tuesdays.
transformers, die hard, and alone...
will i hav a movie date again next tue =)

and the few previous saturdays:
zOuK, the pUmP room,MoS...
GOOD...

lessons have already started.
itz still pretty alright.

itz fri. one more freaking day to go b4 my weekend!!
enjoy urselves peeps.
=)

2007-07-22T21:06:00.000+08:00

sometimes when i'm tired, i keep doing the wrong things.
like restoring an old data when i actually wanted to restore.
and marking my pictures on my phone and deleting it when i wanted to transfer it to the memory card.

fuck it.

2007-07-06T08:30:00.000+08:00

hmmm. a long time since i shared a proper entry.

alrite, here i go.

i'm okay now friends, really fine. dont worry about mi yea.
now i dont work my worries away anymore. i still work as hard now la,
but i dont overdo it.

these few weeks was really good. didnt hav to work on sat so i went to the beach wif some secondary schmates. was only closer to one person in the whole grp so i felt quite bored initially. but they're fun lar. we went to walk awhile at the old deserted IMM.
=) sorry, but itz really deserted to mi i dunno y.

and the day before the sentosa trip, was girls out night. haha. went to MOS to watch the topshop fashionshow but didnt quite enjoyed it. coz it was free entry and the place was so packed. the lockers were all full and we have to hold on to our shopping bags.

there were only 3 of us; jen, alicia and meself. but i juz lurve them can. =)
then we went to the pump room. which is really a very nice place. they hav live band, nice crowd and staff. nice drinks too.

drinks are all the same u'll say but drinks from MOS is seriously diluted.

alright. think i shall stop here. i'll try to upload some pictures.
nowdays very seldom tk pictures. hair short la.
haha

2007-07-02T20:50:00.000+08:00

so loaded wif work.
eri would be an offday for mi.
finally.

2007-06-23T10:32:00.000+08:00

havent been really updating.
was damn packed wif work. so much things to look forward to after next week.
itz graduation! gg back to sch and the half a dozen of us. haha.
miss all the sis...

and then there'll be a beach session wif my beach gf. haha.

and shopping!!! so glad that u sms mi ytd. haha. i miss u so much man ms Tan. =)
the karma u was telling mi about. itz so so true. haha.
now, i really have to believe that we hav to treat people how we wan ourselves to be treated.

hmmm. i dunno if u'll be reading this, but u promised mi that u'll bring mi to the fashion show next weekend. but guess ure too packed wif work. i dont even know if ure in town. )=

things hav started to change. i'm happier now.
maybe i've missed out too much, thatz y i got upset.

nvm. pay will be in next week. i shall enjoy miself..
wahaha...