bah. mondays off. damn lam nua.
bf's not working today. spent the night at his place the past 2 days. but his bed not comforty at all. will hav v bad backache.
oh my, i detest gg to work. how?????????
tmr gotta rush for the monthly closing again. its like a cycle, which goes on and on and on and.....
sometimes i feel upset abt myself. ive not achieved anything in life. nobody loves mi. except my bf... i feel so childish saying this, but its true.
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i guess tt when someone makes a mistake, she will have to live in disgrace for life.
maybe it shouldnt be this way at all. its juz the people around mi. there again, those who're with mi are only a handful. bf, and a few other friends.
izzit people like mi are not yet accepted in the society? y do i have to be treated so unfairly among the rest??
at times, i really feel so lost. i feel tt i do not have anyone. except bf.
yes its true tt he will start a family soon with mi. tt will be my own family. a family tt i always wanted it to be the way it is.
i do not want to live with disgrace. which my family is making mi feel now. i tried so hard to win points for myself all these yrs, but to no avail. i feel tt they juz take mi for granted. i hate myself for saying this, but thats juz the way it is. that's how pathetic i am. i do not even know who i am myself anymore.
i'm not happy anymore.
i juz hope that tmr would be a better day.
