nothing much to blog about lately.

3 yrs, 4 mth... and still counting.
thatz how old my blog is.

so much hav happened. from the patch up to the breakup.
from my o levels holidays till i finish poly.
from an immature, insensible schoolgirl to a career- minded woman.

ok, not implying anything. i'm not upset and all. probably juz feeling emotional.

"y do u play wif my hair" i asked
"coz itz soft, it smells nice, and i like u" he said
and i juz smiled.

"y do u look at mi everytime when the traffic light turns red" i always asked.
"because i wanna look at you when i'm not driving" always the same reply from him.

"y do u offer to send mi home when i'm drunk?" i asked
"because i love u" he said.

one day, he asked:
"y did u not tell mi all these until i found out from my friend"
"leave mi alone" i said.
"pls let mi take care of u" he said
"LEAVE MI ALONE" i screamed. and left.

it happened 2 yrs ago.
and i really regretted being so mean.
i could hav put thous words in a better way.
uve found happiness. u'll nv play wif my hair, nv hear mi talk abt going to the beach, grumble about work, nv ask mi to put the pic i took wif u on friendster...

i'll nv ask u to do silly things like watch the sunset, wash ur car, hav bfast, force u drink vodka, play wif newborn kittens in the playground...

i've really realised it all too late. but i'm really glad that we're still best buds.
the flowers are from u. this time, i didnt throw it away. coz itz sunflower, not roses. :)i know u'll be reading, but u always dont tag. anywaay, thanks.

MONDAY
"Familiar things, familiar furniture, everything seems so familiar" i said
"yes, nothing here hav changed" you said.
i kept quiet.
"wat about ur heart??" i asked myself, silently.

2 different person.
one who expects nothing in return and treats u like a princess and u takes him for granted.
the other is the one that u've put in so much effort. but... unsure. no answer. there'll probably nv be an answer.

i've loved before. i really did.

LOVE = joy, happiness, warmth, comfort, assurance + pain, lost, emptiness, disappointment + RESPONSIBILITY.

wat abt u babes and dudes? really love before???
:)
dont be shy. my tagboard is for u to tag u silly people.