today went to swensons to hav lunch and celebrate jasmine's bday... then anna da jie bought a little gift for us... i think we were very crazy today... then ying ying even broke the keychain's head... coz there were six of us, so we deccided to name d keychain that was broken "qi mei"... no. 7 sister... it was stupid... nvm sstill... ying even put it on the stairs at the lecture theater... everyone walked passed her muz think that she's pocessed... hmmm... after that the simon become so boring, so i used the chocolate box that we wanted to throw away and wrote something... i wanted to curse someone, so i wrote rest in peace... then break le, i decided to go to the ladies when peishan juz laughed... she thought that the box was for the dead 7mei... haha... itz so lame... but i dunno how to put it into words... yah... and we took a cab back to sch from j8, and i saw HIM... i tell u i really HATE HIM... he was in a car and he saw mi too... i wanted to cry again, but in front of my sisters, i cant... i dont wanna scare them... so i walked very fast for the lecture... when ying asked wat happened to mi, i juz told her... i even told her abt the $$$ incident which i'll nv forget... a few hundred still nvm lor... but nvm... can buy mi a lesson... once bitten, twice shy... so after him, i got only 1 bf... which i think is also the last, coz i dont wanna upset anyone... morever, i dont hav time for anyone else... so i will work work work and work... well, if u happens this, i wanna tell u... i am sick of u... dont think that u know mi so well... and i really hate u... even u hav a car or u can afford a house, i think u got it by undesirable means... maybe u should f*** the cows or the elephant... oh sorry, i think u arent even suitable to mate wif an animal, coz a pig is better off than u... stop disgracing urself and ur friends, and dont ever tell anyone that u noe mi or that ure my ex bf... please! i muz hav been blind then... i will never forgive u... NEVER!!! dont u ever go find mi at my school again!!! i will burn ur house, and I MEAN IT U IDIOT!!! 

hmm... going to school soon!! so hungry... nvm... today's jasmine's bday... happpy bdae!! we will go celebrate later... hah... i noe wat i want for this new year... happy guessing bahz... muackz! 

juz got home from suntec... went there wif zhanyu and hengling... so long didnt see dem le... was late for sch again today, coz i forgot to bring my wallet... so gotta go back home and take... saw samuel on the way, so we walked to sch together, or else it will be so odd to be the only one late... bought the stupid marketing txtbk juz now, and i kinda regreatted... but nvm lah... saw an adidas shoe juz now, but quite ex... will buy it when i get my pay...yah... and tmr is jas's bday le... fri is new years eve... where to go? i oso dunno... maybe go the countdown that zhan told mi juz now... hope it'll be fun... anyway, do this... click on it to do a test abt mi... haha!! http://www.quizyourfriends.com/yourquiz.php?quizname=041229084904-927567 

today is ying's 20th bday... celebrated for her in sch... d test today was ok, but not my mood... dunno y these few days very moody... very sad also... i dunno lah... feel so sick and tired also... very hungry, but no mood to eat... very tired, but cant get to sleep... sorry if i treated any one of u badly these few days... i'm really not in the mood for anything... not even watching blade wif u... i noe i was mean juz now... sorry... 

yesterday went to orchard for countdown... quite happening... though it was pretty lonely... went wif my sis after work... but quite sweet lah... we reached there at around 1145... then i saw yushan... haha... she was wif her friends... then people spray foam on us lor... as usual... then when the count down finish le, a very cute boy said merry christmas to mi... den i juz smile smile back loe... coz he looks so sweet... then dunno y like electricshock nia... then he juz hugged mi... haha... then he looked at mi and kissed my forehead... haha... abit siao lah. but nvm lor... den we exchanged no... then went to eat at the sormerset there... lydat lor... eat till 2+, den took cabie home... simple christmas... =) 

these day very high... sick nia... hav bad bad flu and headache... sometimes i can feel that something inside my head is bleeding... i dunno.... maybe there's a tumour inside... haha... so sad... tmr is christmas le... but wont be as happening as last yr... coz will be working in d day... d cute cute de nan ren got ask mi out leh, but forget man; she's bringing her gf along... argh... maybe if i be their 'lightbulb', i might get molested by some bangalas in return... hmm... someone please ask mi out leh... ytd weihan called... den chat lor, for a few hrs i think... hmm... if i told him all the things that had happened to mi, i dont think he will even call mi again... i didnt tell him anything... thatz y he said he still misses mi alot... i dunno y also lah... if i hav feelings for a guy, if he say he thought of mi once, i'll be so so happy... but if itz someone who i feel that is a stranger to mi, no matter how cute he is, i oso got no feeling leh... y lydat one leh?? i dunno oso... if i got bf now den gd nia, i'll take d day off tmr and spend it wif him... or maybe go happening... but now, think i can forget about it.... nightz to all d lonely people who'll br spending christmas alone... 

very tired le... not feeling good either... pms or wat i oso dunno... juz better not make mi angry... aya... i dunno lah... people say dont dare talk to mi, coz i very fierce these few days... nvm lor... think should be quite bz after today... will be online less often, coz got something very important to do... this is a SECRET... dont tell u... aya... i didnt smile today... really... i nv speak more than ten times today... so... i dunno y lar... but... no mood lah... sleep le, coz tired... tmr den got energy earn money, den can buy things... wan an... 

juz got back home from work actually... pretty tired, coz i'ld be working for like almose the whole week... went to cck central to see doctor yest afternoon, den went to lot one... something stupid happened... i lazy to say lah...which men can nv be a pevert?? not insulting guys lah, but i really feel so sick yesterday... today even worse... saw colin for the firse time... it was boss de nephew... i wanna smack his face nia... looks like bear bear... den so fierce somemore... all say he nice and cute but i think he's so fake... anyway, worked wif wendy today and it simply sux... she's a bitch... (i'm no 1, she's no 2)... haha... like froze said, i'm black angel mah.. haha... i need a massage so much... now, all my friends all like suddenly grown up le... saw vernice and theresa yest... they now look so different... and anisa [dunno how to spell ur name lah, i only noe u called ah lian], clare... all like become da jie jie le... den wei lun so handsome le... but still so quiet like last time... hmmm... now i hav a dear, but this dear doesnt love mi, neither do i love him... juz that i likes his accompany, and he finds mi sexy... hope ure not lying huh... haha... but there's someone else in my heart... and he's d one i think of every min, every second... so what if i noes ure the one?? wat do i get?? yah... my heart's being stabbed... i'm complicated, lame, full of nonsense, ugly, a difficult person?? maybe thatz wat guys will think i'm, but deep in mi... i suits none of them... though i'm so unhappy and disatisified wif life, nv am i gonna kill myself again... =) nightz 

today last day of sch le... but working tmr... think i no life le... work and school... going crazy very soon... today had d christmas present exchange... den recieved d gift from peishan... haha... itz a bag... likes it alot... thanks sis... today still okay lah... not so sian, coz got uncle to chat through sms... den lydat lor... ended quite early, den tutorial cancled oso, so reach home at 8+... going to dose off le... people ar... dont try to kill urself like i did ar... itz stupid... haha... =) 

today supposed to go out wif peishan and anna to buy jasmine and ying's bday present... but very tired, so decided to giv it a miz... tmr is last day of sch again... so will be working... better to work... if not alone at home will keep thinking of the unhappy things...

teresa jie jie de bustard juz called mi... but i asked him to call back later... he wanted mi to say gd things to jie to make her forgive him... but i dunno wat to do... should i help him, or her? if i help him, he's a bustard... if i dont, i feel so bad... itz nice to make people patch things up... but... argh...

these few days got go home earlier le... calista is the ONLY reason y i go home... she is also the ONLY reason that keeps mi living... and yah... my fever has gone down... i'm gonna hav cheesecake tmr...

looking forward to tmr, coz we (6sis) will be exchanging christmas presents...

after i've been through so much these few days, i've learnt alot... learn to love the both of us more, learnt to protect ourselves... and one important thing...
NO ONE CAN EVER BE TRUSTED...

hengling is back from japan... maybe meeting her wif zhanyu these few days, coz so long didnt meet... den we will go spend $$$...

though itz my hard earned $$, but itz worth spending, coz it somehow makes mi better... this week spent more than 600 bux le... dat day sunday go shopping buy christmas present buy till coming $400... dunno buy wat also...

write till here le... coz something nice happened today... secret... anyway, dont call mi dear, if i'm not urs... dont say u love mi when u dont... i dont like it...

hmmm... doing the stupid excel thingie now... had fever today, maybe coz of the steak i had yesterday at marches in town... too heaty... but still went to sch today... coz dont wan people to say i chao geng... these few days better le... i dunno watz wrong to mi either... friends find mi a total stranger... last time when i sick will hav people to ask mi take medicine, go see doctor... now i sick only xinhao ask mi rest at home and yingying say i so pity... so thin le still sick... thin got wrong meh? she always says "u think everybody like u so thin ar"... haha... den so funny... coz i always eat and eat... maybe i'm gonna be d second dinosaur... today was quite disguisting, coz of the effective oral lesson... she's a mad and crazy woman... then got this guy in my class came to sch wif alot of love bites on his necks... talk of the day, though i was too restless to... hope i'll get better tmr... hate it when i'm sick... 

i ate a bar of panodols and 3 sleeping pills last night...
the bad thing is that i didnt die...
but the gd thing is... i really had a good sleep...
i didnt wake up or anything in d middle of the night...
u muz ne thinking that i'm crazy, trying to kill myself....
no; i'm not... i seriously knows wat i want in life...
i am so tired that i cant hang on there anymore...

i'm not a crowd, juz that I NEED A BREAK!!!
my heart was swelling, so i thought that panadols can cure d pain...
had two, but nothing happened... then continued until 10...
hmmm... i'm still alive...
should i smile? =)

ke ai de sly... haha... quite some time didnt blog le... coz nothing really "happening" going on these days... going for christmas party next week at yishun... looking forward to it... hee... oh yah... went to watch movie at jubilee yesterday... d seats sux... but nvm lah... =) den pon yesterday morn's lessons, coz cant wake up... oso not a bad thing lah... coz i dont wanna see d old witch... den went to sch for nothing yesterday lor... yah... i bought chocs juz now... and i love chocolates... hmmm... itz been quite some time since i last lighted up a cigg... ever i saw d black thing nicole showed mi, i think i'm not going to smoke anymore... itz so gross... though it better to smoke coz it makes mi more "confident", itz better to stay away from it... i dont wanna get lung cancer... there was this guy who started smoking when he turned 18, and now he's having lung cancer... god! i started at 14... so if i continues, i think i'm gonna die soon... haha... enough of these... DONT SMOKE... or try to smoke less lah... u all reading this should get wat i mean huh... hee... sly is cute... if only he's here to spen d night wif mi... haha... =) i'm lonely... so lonely... wat to do? wait lor... everyday i am waiting... sometimes i'm so tired... argh... i dont hav a gd life lah... so letting the world drift by is not a bad thing either... 

sat night is supposed to be happening... but no! life's a bitch now... as bitchy as i am...
hah... sometimes i'm so tired...
i dont seems to hav a life anymore...
study on weekdays, work on weekends...
only free on some weekday afternoons to catch up wif friends...
really miz d times when i can hav coffee bean everyweek,
gossip abt other people and rot...
different le... maybe i'm really grown up le??
even now, everytime i wanna smoke,
i will tell myself that my lungs will get black...
saw darryl wif his sis juz now...
talked abit... he said we both changed alot... haha...
he laser off his 'ang gong' on his arms le...
quite wasted actually... hee... =)
i hav learnt something this week...
itz so so valuable... so itz a secret...
hmm... u all guess bahz...
wendy going rom nxt mon...
she invited mi that time, and i told her that i will go wif my bf...
but now i got no bf le... so i dunnno still wanna go anot leh... which nice guy wanna go wif mi??
haha... nvm lah... think i wont go... dont wanna be a laughing stock... all couples couples go...
den i alone, will be so wierd... unless i hav a bf tmr lah... hee...
maybe i go home accompany calista better... hah...
long day nia... tired le... sleep... nightz

... tired...