cant get to sleep so decided to meet nicole at 302... it was at 5+ then... he juz finished work and his hair stinks... anyway, i told him my miserable story and he juz laughed... then he pinched my cheeks... i'm forever his xiao mei mei... but he asked mi not to think so much... actually i really hated the girl who ditched nicole... i mean... y did she?? and she made him become a gay... sorry nicole, itz not an insult, itz juz... ridiculous...

we talked for awhile until a guy came to join our conversation... it waz nicole's friend, michael... but dunno bi anot lah... nichole told mi they were from the same modeling agency, juz that michael was more popular...

they both then went to the gents for quite some time... 15 min i think... felt quite bored and sick, coz some ah peks walked passed and kept staring at my legs... coz i was wearing shorts... then started searching my phone... it wasnt on the table, neither was it in my pocket... i searched everywhere.... even inside nicole's jacket and helmet... no sight of it... gosh... i was so sad... i just wanted to cry... yesterday i lost my dear and today i lost my phone... i've nv been more sad than ever...

the sell kopi de aunti asked where were my friends... i said in the toilet... she told mi the toilet was empty... god!! wat am i gonna do?? cant call nicole too... itz still too early to wake my mom out if i call back home... there's no point either... so walked everywhere to search for nicole and michael... until i reached lot1... i saw michael outside mc... he told mi nicole was bashed up by some ah bengs... i wanted to call the police but... where's my phone??

michael was an idiot... why cant he do anything?? anyway, he juz continued puffing his stupid cigarettes and i looked everywhere... then finally i saw him, walking out from the post office po box... he looked okay, juz that his checks were swollen... yah... he got punched... but he was still a man; compared to michael...

nicole then 'sayang' my head like he always did... then asked mi wat happened... i wanted to hug him and cry... but i didnt... tears juz rolled down my cheeks... he knew what i was crying for... for that HIM... coz only he knows exactly how much i loves him...

den he took out my phone and told mi... "i sat outside the post office to look at ur inbox to see if i can do anything"... then i "HUH!"
he wanted to help mi patch things up wif mi... then out of nowhere someone pulled him to the letter box to punch him....

i felt so touched and juz hugged him... he hugged mi tightly too, and i could felt his heart beat... he was actually more silly than i am... i waited for him outside "tom and stefanie" and he rode his bike from 302 to send mi home...

actually, nicole noes mi more than i noes myself... he juz kept saying "if u wanna cry, juz do it... it'll makes u feel better"...

i juz simply told him that i didnt want to... so wat if i really still loved him?? if we really cant be together, there's nothing i can do either...

then he smiled and said... that's y i escape reality and love guys instead...

somehow, i feel so touched... i was not alone... i still hav my dear nicole...