had very bad gastric pain today mornin'... felt like vomitting after a few puffs of menthol lightz... watz got into mi?? sudden dont feel like being in love anymore... i'm juz so so tired... sometimes i think that i am really a faker... do i really love him that much?? anyway, i treasure him and pampers him bcoz i dont even know whether i can say 'i luv u' to him tmr... we would never be together forever but i juz want him to hav good memories when he's wif mi... am i too childish and naive?? maybe bahz... i dunno wat i want in life also... juz letting the world drift by... hope that i will spend my everyday good and nice... i may be lame at times, it nt bcoz i'm born to be lame, itz juz that i feel good when i sees people laugh... well...who can ever understands mi?? NO BODY... thats y i am so lonely...