this is my little Calista would be; haha... dear didnt call today... pretty worried though... anyway, holidays sux... been to bugis and orchard d past few days... den dunno where to go le... maybe going to cityhall or something wif sis tmr... sian sian sian... still got 1 more week to go b4 d results are out... god bless bless bless mi ar... dont letmi sit for d sub paper... where is dear?? where is my dear?? ''ni zhai na li''?!? zhanyu's bday outing on saturday is only until evening... what to do after that?? hmp... nan de no work on sat... maybe go sentosa find my classmates or wat... hee... i didnt smoke today... wow!! cheerz... coz feelin' pretty gd these few days... can live without cigarettes for the time being bahz... love all... my calista, my dear, my dad--> juz gave mi another 50 bucks... my mom, my sis--> bought magazines for mi... my shoes--> kenneth said it was meant for kids, my pc--> so that i can upload this thingie for u to see, my cupboard--> to put my new clothes, my wallet--> to put money, d fridge--> to store mocha and tiger... this is not going to end coz when i'm happy, i fell good... and when i feels good, i love everything!! lame mi, but.... MuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuAcccccccccccccccccckZ!!

1. hair colour:- anything that suits him...

2. eye colour:- brown or black

3. skin tone:- tanned!?!

4. long or short hair:- short...

5. piercings:- on tongue, lips, ears, nose... dont really matters to mi...

6. scars:- dont matter as long as i really loves him..

7. big butt or little butt:- of coz smaller ones lar.. coz mine not big also mah... hee!

8. straight:- i dont mind if he's a gay... but if u really is, dont tell mi, please!!!

9. outgoing or shy:- outgoing would makes everything brighter..

10. sarcastic or sincere:- sincere.. so that i'll feel loved!!

11. shld he/she be filial:- i'm sure he is =)

12. shld he/she love his/her mom:- of coz..

13. shld he/she watch movies?:- if not shop wif mi all d time?? i bet he'll curse mi!!!

14. be sweet:- love sweet talks, but only if itz true

15. be smart:- hmm... thatz of coz...

16. be funny:- to a certain extent

17. smoker?:- he already is

18. drink?- as long as that he dont gets drunk in front of mi.. itz juz so turn off

19. play with your hair:- haha.. yes... i do like that..

20. kiss on the first date:- i dun mind..

21. bring u gift?:- y not..

22. lay under the stars with u?:- tjat would be so romantic, but we hav better things to do, yea??

23. write poetry abt ya:- hmmm.. that would be sweet

24. call u honey, sweetie or baby:- baby..

25. hang out wit u n ur frens:- if both parties are fine wif it..

26. hold ur hand:- grab will be better

27. sing to u:- loves to

28. play guitars or piano:- guitar

29. one last condition:- i muz be the only ger he can KISS... =)

had very bad gastric pain today mornin'... felt like vomitting after a few puffs of menthol lightz... watz got into mi?? sudden dont feel like being in love anymore... i'm juz so so tired... sometimes i think that i am really a faker... do i really love him that much?? anyway, i treasure him and pampers him bcoz i dont even know whether i can say 'i luv u' to him tmr... we would never be together forever but i juz want him to hav good memories when he's wif mi... am i too childish and naive?? maybe bahz... i dunno wat i want in life also... juz letting the world drift by... hope that i will spend my everyday good and nice... i may be lame at times, it nt bcoz i'm born to be lame, itz juz that i feel good when i sees people laugh... well...who can ever understands mi?? NO BODY... thats y i am so lonely...

i really hate to study this 2 principles lah... so much memorizing... eat all d paper oso no use... hee... =)!!! actually wanted to meet lao uncle... but didnt... dont feel like meeting him leh... den i giv stupid excuses... my mother dunno go where... now 1= le still not back yet... hmp... happening ar she!!! anyway... juz started on POM only... dunno how to study... so sickening... wat to do?? i also dunno... fail with flying colours bahz... what am i doing wif uncle?? dunno leh... y are we together??? do we really love each other?? i dunno also... wat is love??? i still cant ans it.... love hurts... really....

juz hung up wif jie... den weihan called... hmmm... jie thought that i wont be at home, coz she thought i went clubbing or something... itz friday night u see... so she thought that my life was still as happening as before... well well well... how can that be?? though i'm quite satisified and contented wif my life because of the 2 "someones", what can i ask for... i'm already very happy... he's booking out later bahz... but still waiting for him to call... juz now d stupid policeman called to ask abt the statement i gave last week... so sickening... he thinks i am as free as him... still asked mi out for lunch on sat afternoon... hah... i dont even hav time for my dearest boyfriend... so!! haha... miz him alot lah... had a dream abt him last night.... kinda lame lah... haha... but it was quite flirtish... wahhhaha.... i shant say wat it is abt... u guys guess bahz!!! haha.... gotta study for the stupid never ending exams!!! especially pom and poa... Ying 2jie always scare mi wif d 3 letters P...O and M... haha... den i will suddenly look stunned... haha... hmp... will update my blog soon bahz... see ya guys...

wah kaoz... today's exams sux... really... d stupid demand and supply thingy... dont even feel like doing after d first qn... sianz... den so stressed until hav fever... or izzit bcoz i smoke too much?? haha... i dunnooso leh... but if i dont smoke i will die lorhz... at least the cigarettes still accompanied mi thru this stupid exam... hmp... waiting for dear to call leh... dunno he calling anot... yesterday night talked to kenneth on the fone for awhile... den we had this secret... haha... only btw mi and him... SECRET!!! haha... so funny lah... anyway... browsing the stupid CMS for d past yr answers... when is wednesday gonna come??? still got a long long long way to go.... exams SUCKZ....

today is mi and deary's 1st mth together... quite fast for mi... but dunno abt him... guess that d relationship is not that "HOT" anymore, maybe becoz d honey moon period over le... went to look for him juz now... but very lame lor... we went to mcdonalds to drink milo... then afterthat he then told mi he's going to ken's hse so he cant accompany mi... d journey from d teckwhye mcdonalds to my home is very very very long lorhz... like never ending... den went to bought something for calista... den reached home le recieved a msg from him, telling mi that he wanted to kiss mi... so funny lah my dear... he got mood swing de... maybe he PMS bahz... i dunno... sometimes gd mood, sometimes face black like charcoal... stupid exams gonna start tmr... wat to do?? still havent fiinish all my notes... jayne juz smsed mi and wish mi good luck... dunno how's things going on wif her ex... wont be able to see her these few weeks bahz... gonna miz u alot de wor!!! u too; study hard...

sianz lorhz... juz got home from d stupid accounting class... so boring... den now friendster can use le, but msn kenna hacked... so lame lah... dunno which stupid idiotic lamer so free, got nothing to do... then d stupid police called say that keith admit that he drugged my cigarettes... dunno wat will happen to him oso... see how he give his statement lah

well well well... itz monday again!!! luckily there's no 10am STATS lecture... or i'll kill d sickening old man!!! having da accounting lecture at 2 later, so... still gotta go back to da stupid place!! =) anyway, examz are round the corner, so itz like... argh!!! it juz suckz... worked till quite late last night, even he called at around 2+ i also didnt answer... juz too tired to even pick up my phone... weihan called last night and we chatted till around one... he is still d same... as sensimential as before... but i'm now attatched to my dear le; so there's nothing much i can do!! =)... he bought mi an elle watch... think muz be quite ex bahz... quite nice, likes it alot, but itz kinda too 'sweet' for mi... =) but nvm... there's finally someone who finds that i am important to him... whatz more can i ask for... i'm already more than contented... love him alot, but i'm still as indipendent as before, coz guyz prefers gers to be independent mah... haha... but i pretend only lah... even if i miss him alot i also wont keep telling him... excessive of missing someone would makes him irritated bahz... wahhhahaha... juz wanna say... "i still love u as before"...