loooovely weekend!
the rain and all, made this weekend so cozy. i nv wanna get out of bed :)

ytd went out for dimsum w bf and family. at ah yat seafood - the bird park outlet. the dim sums were quite affordable; like 128 bux for 6 adults. quite average, like any other dim sum at chinatown. juz that it's like half the price. the seafood thr was disappointing tho. i thought the turf city outlet was better. more variety as well.

after that headed to the hilltop for sightseeing. haha. nothing much oso. juz some factories and greenery. parking is free tho, so can drive up if nth better to do. haha

went hm to sleep till i dunno wat time oso. den headed to thomson for prata. haha. fat fat.
went back home, watch a v boliao movie. den went to sleep.

sunday, woke up at 1130. had macdonalds, did some shopping, den went back hm sleep.
again.
eat sleep sleep eat eat... haha
my looovely weekend. i gg out to eat w bf again. haha

so looking forward to gg dblo w bf next weekend!!

its monday today, but it isnt moody or blue.
its my day off. had lovely bfastat @ toast box. the place is comfy, but the food there was juz alright. i had mee siam, and calista had bah hu toast. the drinks are not too bad, but if u wanna have better toast, ya kun's is better.

after tt sent her to sch. they celebrating teachers' day today. the children all brought present. one of her classmate bought a cute feathery pen for the principal, and he wrote:this penis for u. the missing finger spacing made it sound so wrong. bf kept laughing. he was the one who told mi abt it coz he saw it first.

went to PS to catch final destination. bought the 5 pm show ticket and we went for early dinner @ carls j; bf's fav fast food restaurant. cant rem the name v clearly, but the burger w the mushroom was awesome. i finished up the whole meal, for the first time. i eat alot la, but everytime i will juz leave like maybe 2 mouthful.

we were quite disappointed with the movie tho. we could have like watch proposal or something else...
slept like a log on the ride home. so zzz...

it feels so not mi to be home at this hour la. haha

its the monday off again.
juz hung up w my bf. poor him, he had a bz day today.

i just realised tt so fast, its already mid yr. so many things happened this yr.
my bf and i, we went for our first holiday this yr, then the second and the third.
not really holiday, just getaway.

alright, the first was to genting. gamble, eat, play, drink, sleep...
drink - bf is not a big fan of alcohol, unnlike mi. haha. nevertheless, he can really drink. at least better than most guys. and luckily for mi, when my bf is high, he dont shout or scream or do crazy things. he will only fall asleep in 5 seconds. haha. v cute. coz before i got the towel to wash up, he's already snoring. i think its cute la, coz my bf mah. but for mi, when i'm tipsy, i will juz be happy. i wont do anything tt mean also.

the second was to pulau ubin. out of the island, its considered getaway also mah :D
go thr see mangrove, fly kite, eat seafood, cycle - i like; can burn fats.

ok. the 3rd one was my fav, the totally unplanned trip to pulai springs @ msia. bf drove in. quite fun, eat, sleep, sing, swim, golf, lum nua... i dunno y, but i like long rides in the car. i know it do sounds silly. but i like to look at what other drivers do on the road, look at the other cars. look at the greenery... bf is usually quiet when he drives. but sometimes we will laugh at the things other drivers do. like picking their nose when there's traffic jam. i read from somewhere. at least 70% of men shockingly dig their nose in their cars. its like wth. so dirty. but boys oh boys. haha. i would very much wanna say i dont wanna depend on a man. but cant la, feel so nice in bf's car. esp when the windows are wined down and he drives at 140kph, i tell u, the thrill is undescribable. it feels happy.

in the past, i tell myself not to love my boy so much too. but somehow, after spending time together, gotten to know each other better, i felt tt i love him more each day. not being mushy. i love my bf for the things he did for mi. like when i wanna hav desserts at MOF, he will say "wa lao, u dont always like tt lei, wanna eat expensive things". v upsetting. but when he get his pay, he will say "go MOF eat lei, like v nice".

MOF not tt expensive oso. but its v touching. coz everytime he make comments like i v pampered etc, i dont wish to talk abt it anymore. but come to think of it, i oso sibei jialat la. such things i dunno myself, its only from my friends tt i learnt tt i only like to fine dine la, even the most lok kok place i wanna go is food court, sure muz hav air con one.

itz tt time of the mth again. i will yell at anyone who irks mi. even like the slightest thing, i will juz scream. if not, i'll be v emo. but i really appreciate my bf who tried all his means to make mi smile on the journey to his place ytd night. and he did. we had happy food, we watched a movie together, we fell asleep together in bed. i felt so blessed when i see him sleeping like a baby boy beside mi this morning. the blessed feeling is love i guess. i felt it. i know it took abit too long :) more than a yr. but this lovely feeling is different from the love of worrying abt bf being angry la, thinking if he is driving safe on the road, wondering if he had taken his meals, guessing if he's sleeping well...

:D at least i felt tt these few days, i hav some time to go thru deep thoughts, had some good sleep. i felt so recharged. i'm ready to go to work tmr with all my energy.
** i will be so busy with the year end closing, so this lenghty entry is to make up for my absence... haha :)

bah. mondays off. damn lam nua.
bf's not working today. spent the night at his place the past 2 days. but his bed not comforty at all. will hav v bad backache.

oh my, i detest gg to work. how?????????
tmr gotta rush for the monthly closing again. its like a cycle, which goes on and on and on and.....

sometimes i feel upset abt myself. ive not achieved anything in life. nobody loves mi. except my bf... i feel so childish saying this, but its true.
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i guess tt when someone makes a mistake, she will have to live in disgrace for life.
maybe it shouldnt be this way at all. its juz the people around mi. there again, those who're with mi are only a handful. bf, and a few other friends.

izzit people like mi are not yet accepted in the society? y do i have to be treated so unfairly among the rest??

at times, i really feel so lost. i feel tt i do not have anyone. except bf.
yes its true tt he will start a family soon with mi. tt will be my own family. a family tt i always wanted it to be the way it is.

i do not want to live with disgrace. which my family is making mi feel now. i tried so hard to win points for myself all these yrs, but to no avail. i feel tt they juz take mi for granted. i hate myself for saying this, but thats juz the way it is. that's how pathetic i am. i do not even know who i am myself anymore.

i'm not happy anymore.

i juz hope that tmr would be a better day.

lalala. Itz sunday today, and guess wat, i need nt work tmr. Yay! Gg for an interview tmr. Hope all goes well. I'm so tired working at this current place. I nv gotta leave work at six, and tt is not wat i wan at all. I hav gastrics, i hav dizzy spells, all thx to this job.

Anyway, weekend was simply gr8. Stayed over at bf's place on fri night, spent some time together on sat afternoon and then i went to a collegue's newborn's full mth. always feel happy and excited when attending baby's celebrations.

Bf went to collect his pc from sim lim. He've sent it back twice, and i hope it is ok now.

Actually, i hav a confession to make. I always complain abt how boring bf is. But the thing is, he's really the man that can be tthe family man. Not wat many wants as a bf, but a husband. he would feel v happy each time i decided to spend the night w him. I dunno y, but i can juz tell. I seldom sees happiness in his eyes nowdays. I hope itz juz work tt he's been worrying abt. Now i start to feel bad. I had wanted to accompany him tonight and stay at his place to make bfast for him tmr morn, but because we had a little argument earlier, i kept mum abt it, and feeling regreat now. Haha.

Went to watch taken in town earlier this evening. Had nice olive fried rice at some thai restaurant. Nicee food, nice movie, nice drinks; i bought snapple to reward myself. Keke. Nice things makes mi happy. Heeee!

Alright, time to catch some beauty sleep... Nite nite.

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lalala. Itz my day off today. So bored at home. Nthing much to do.

I had a looong weekend this week. 4 days of rest. but work tmr is gonna be insane i tell u. Itz been 2 weeks since i last knock off at six. I work till like 9 plus 10 each day, where everyone already had their dinner and lying on the couch to watch telly. How can i not be pissed? I am the last to leave office everyday. I work more than 12 hrs everyday. the thought of gg back to office tmr makes mi wanna puke. I cant go out w my frends... I cant hav dinner w my family. Is this the corporate ladder that i wanna climb??

sometimes i complain so much but bf says 'isnt this what u wan?' actually, this is not wat i wan. Eversince i met bf, i hav learnt to take things easier, slower... Bf taught mi many things in life. He impresses mi w things i think he didnt know.

Oh well, shall juz enjoy the little time ttz left for myself and calista. I'm so tired!!

god. I just realised how busy life have been tt i totally neglected to update for a mth.

Yae, i'm still alive. Sound and kicking. Am updating using my mobile. Have been so busy w work lately. I fear tt one day, i will wake up, not knowing who i was. I dream abt working in my sleep. I'm so tired. I hav insomia. I sleep only 4 hrs a day. The rest of the time i'm either having nightmares, or wierd dreams where people scream at mi. This is so sad. I thought it was juz pms again, but it isnt. I thought i would feel better after the getaway, but apperantly, i did not. i dunno. I juz wanna get to sleep.....

Tmr will not be a gd day at all. I hav god i dunno how many reports to rush. Oh nooooooo.....

I need to go to lalaland soon. I hope i'll sleep well tonight...
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i had a great day today with the mates i missed out so much la.
went to do jamming near town, itz so fun. i would probably go back thr with them again...

went for a simple dinner at some chinese restaurant and then headed to sentosa after thinking where to go for around like an hour.

itz been a long time since i last went to Sentosa. i used to frequent there when i was younger, maybe like at least twice in a mth or so.

so yup. itz nice walking on the beach in the evening. sandy wind, soft sand; not tt soft la... but itz nice. sit on the sand and bitch around with frens. bitching man. ttz my forte la.

it will be sun tmr. bf day :)
wish i could have some nice bfast. shall see :)
getting tired. tucking in soon.
nighty night night

belated valentine's day.
this is my first v day wif bf, and it was great.

stayed over on fri night and then went chomps for supper.
had a long long week so we slept early.

woke up early on sat for brunch at bugis..
nice pasta, nice sleep, no dark eye rings, goood hair day, and new shoes... i like :)
went to bugis street.. so crowded and hot can. anyhow, itz under renovation, and the weather was freaking humid... no mood to continue shopping.

then we decided to go ecp for a walk, and fly our kite.
it was really nice. the children playing, people cycling and rollerblade, and people bring their pups/ humongous dogs for a walk.
i have not felt the beauty of the beach for a long time, i have nv seen my bf so happy for a long time. seeing such beautiful things, i feel happy. i feel that people shouldnt feel bad abt the recession and all. coz when there's peak, it will come to a point tt it wont improve anymore and start to decline. chim ar?? i learnt this in sch :)

then we travelled to yishun for dinner.
wif "slutty gf" now. we travel anywhere and everywhere... haha. and dump everything in her.

what are u thinking man. slutty gf is bf's vehicle la.

ahye, and today, we went to the little island 15 min away from spore for a walk.
simple get together with my in laws to be. haha.
i dont have to go to work tmr. i feel so relaxed.
but i feel the pinch as well. 10% pay cut; 2 days off a mth.

putting tt aside, i at least have some time alone for myself. to sleep... haha.

so much of hahaing today. i wont be able to sleep tonight. my results will be out tmr.
i'm worried. be it i pass or fail, i juz wanna know my results...

nighty night night peeps.

happy CNY!
:)

the get together with relatives had gotten less exciting over the years.
each yr seems to pass faster, and each yr we have lesser to talk abt.

have a happy and prosperous CNY everyone.

p/s: i dunno wat to write abt..

goodbye 2008, welcome 2009
:)

i'll be twenty 3 next yr.
gosh. the forth yr of my twenties...
awww. feeling so old.

oh well anyway, will be gg to watch the fireworks tonight.
yay.

yr 2009. i hope it'll be a good yr.
many will be hit by the crisis, but nevertheless, live life to the fullest.
forget all the unhappiness, remember all the joy and laughter u shared with your loved ones. u'll nv know what happens tmr.

life's pretty unpredictable.
do wat u wanna do :)
like the yes man.

keke.
have a happy new yr everyone.

merry xmas..
:)

itz such a nice day. the weather's cold, i hav my bf to cuddle and accompany mi shop.
sweets.
i'm so contented; and happy :)

actually, i decided to just pop by and update coz i accidentally saw my bf hoping to read something new from the blog.

i bought something nice from lalalalalalasenza; a gift to reward myself this xmas.
:) happy <33

this yrs coming to an end. itz scary coz time really flies. itz like in a blink blink, i'll be 23.
den wat.
save money la.
buy house la.
get married la.
have kids la.
watch them grow up la.

lala...
maybe in the past, i would probably say ahye...
not the type of life i want.

but when you grow older each day, you will come to realise that this is life.
this is what the life every woman wants.
let mi quote u an example.

if theres a man who'll be there for you, who loves you, who treasures u, who stays with you for good or bad times...
who tolerate your nonsensical bimbotic fetishes. then y not marry this man and fulfill all the above.

then we have those carrier minded ones who juz slog so hard everyday.
for wat nia, for $$$ i know, but izzit the root of all evil??

if one day you grow old, ur only companion will be ur $$$.
happy meh??

mmm.
i'm juz whining la, coz no bonus...
but i still hav lovely bf who treats mi eat carls jr.
now i feel so fat. hahaha

k la. i gg lalaland sleep on the lalabed and see my lalaprince sleeping in his lalabunk.

goooooody nite nite
:)

lalalala...
itz friday tmr!!!

miss my dearest bf.
know i very mushy, but i just cant help it.

i feel so not like gg to work everyday, but when i reach my desk each day, i will smell the roses tt my bf sent on my bday.
the sweet sent really juz brighten everything unhappy up.
and wif the vase of roses in front of mi, i keep thinking abt my bf.
keke.

bfbfbf, i miss my bf...
will finally get to see him again after 2 days. haha

Weekend will be short tho. sigh.

BUT TILL THEN,

i'm still a HAPPY BABY!!! coz itz fri tmr and i hav 2 hrs lunch break.
byeee

11/11/2008

itz my twenty second!!
there's no such thing as forever twenty one....

thanks for all the wishes frens...

i've had a big surprise today...
my sweet bf sent mi some fresh roses to my office.
he wans to be together wif mi forever... lalala
i'm over the moon! sliding down the rainbow...
i'm a happy angel!!

dont be surprise if you hear wedding bells ringing soon :)

anyway, dinner was gr8...
the day was simply marvelous.
it was sweet and romantic..

alright.
i shall enjoy wat is left for the day...
keke.

10/10/2008.
a very special day for a boy and myself.

itz been a yr.
a yr of joy, a yr of laughter, a yr of new life, a yr of having a companion.
those fights and arguments aside, i'm really glad that i have you my boy.

itz friday, but i'm stuck at home.
had a really long week. itz the monthly closing.
the deadlines, the reports etc...
i can finally put those things aside and enjoy my weekend.

jen juz called. she wanted to go out play.
i guess i'm probably too tired today.
but i still miss u tho gf. :)

looking forward to the lovely weekends.
enjoy urs too.

lalalalala...
itz mid week tmr!! but this week is really insane.
lotsa stuff to do in office. so tired.
heard from some tt the colleagues tt that management is looking into retrenchment.
haha.

miss bf loads. we had a great weekend.
went to watch connected and eagle eye.
i still remember how heavy the rain was at 3am in the morning.
its probably retarded for you to play in the downpour, but for myself, i enjoyed it all.

Can feel my bf shivering, can feel his body all so cold.
can see the boy i love concentrating when riding in the rain.
keke.

misses bf.
hope he'll bring mi out for ice-cream soon!!
the ice cream monsterrrRrr........
is sleepy.

ZZzzZZzzz

PMS.
tt time of the mth.
i hate it.

have a long long day tmr.
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looking forward to sunday tho.
the F1 Grand prix.
at the grandstand can u believe it????/

i hope the day will be sunny sunny.
:)

i'm back. :)
Zzzz.. had a long long weekend at grand's place and am soOoooO sleepy.
had a lOng day in office today as well, but cant get to sleep.

eight days without babysweet, and still counting on. it do feels empty/ wierd/ lonesome/ not fun/ not noisy/ not myself without you.

well anyway, i'll juz update whatever i can remember. if not i'll forget.
:)

sat 13 September 2008

The very last time we watched a movie together.
the theater was freaking cold but "MaMaMia" was cheery enough to warm us up.
very nice show, four and a star for mi.

fri 12 September 2008

Went out to play and for dinner wif the bday boy CH. the boys wanted to throw him into the water, but he managed to escape.

and a few more weeks ago...

PJ and JH's twenty first bday.
forever twenty one... :D
had some good dinner with the rest, like some wedding ceremony in a chinese restaurant. very cozy cozy.

then more weeks ago...
bf had nothing to do so i started to browse thru the hdb website. he then openly peeked at what i was reading and went "we go apply la". juz like tt. :)

sometimes, i feel tt things suddenly go so fast tt i cant catch up wif my boy. i cant really find any words to describe such feelings. itz like a mixture of happiness, nervousness, excitement....

i really look forward to Mid October. i cant believe it myself, tt i'll be settling down soon. i hope all will turn out fine.
i know this done sound right, but i wanna be a wife so much. the wife of someone who loves u the most. i cant wait for this man to propose, cant wait for the big big day, cant wait for the moment when we exchange wedding bends. i feel so so soooooo excited, i can go on and on for 3 days i think.

it would b sweet if we could get those tiffany wedding bands to wearr on out fourth finger on the rest of our lives. and the solemnization on the beach. with the sand, the sun, he water.

i wanna wear black. but the colour doesnt goes well with the sand. champagne or cream would be just nice i guess.

lalala.
my bf havent even propose to mi. and i'm all so excited. i think he'll jump if he reads this. :)
or maybe he'll really propose to mi by hiding in the dustbin, or maybe disguise himself as the fedex courier man and send the ring to my workplace, or put a blink blink diamond ring in my pasta and i swallow it. or...

i think i'll better stop. coz i will juz go on and on and on and on.......................
hee.
i'm so happy!

sigh.
many things been happening at work recently.
it was even on the news paper last week about the high turnover that our company have.

i put in so much effort, to see people not doing the things they should do.
just push things around = master in tai chi.

i dunno for how long more i can tolerate this.
and for tt, i didnt do well for my exams at all.

thinking abt it, the effort and time u put into at work,
the not paid OTs...

3 more months...
counting down

i just watched america next top model.
jenah's still my fav. :D

i think i'm pretty much like her.
loves to hav fun, do happy things.
misses her bf. feels homesick when she's away,
misses her family, misses her bed...

which is so much how i feel when i'm away too.

i miss E alot. he juz smsed and said he's having a not so good time.
i hope he'll be fine.
i cant get to sleep. i'm worrried. i hope my boy's really fine.

hope to go to lalaland soon.... nightz.

half day on a friday tmr!!!!!!
hurrAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a busy day for mi tmr i guess.
i so look forward to weekend.
i wanna go to botanical gardens.
so i can push my dearest into the pond.

shhhhhh.... dont tell him.
:)

he'll love mi so much. keke

misses u E.

monster Zee is cominggg.... bye